02-21-2017, 06:36 PM
Last night it happened again another similar "cant open my eyes" and feel like I am going to crash or something and anticipate the "pain".....I know this much that I believe that similar dream took place again but not in the form of a car crash like the previous post dream.
Here's the weird thing today, before people in my job are chit chatting away and I felt like I wanted to include my self and it was bothering me and I felt isolated and ignored...........but today I felt neutral and it didnt bother me this time.....I felt poised and calm and neutral about not, not craving attention.
I do get thoughts and desires to stop EPHRA not because I cant take it no more but because I think I just jump right into OF or OGSF.......is that resistance whispering in my ears to do this because EPHRA feels boring and not noticing anything happening?
Here's the weird thing today, before people in my job are chit chatting away and I felt like I wanted to include my self and it was bothering me and I felt isolated and ignored...........but today I felt neutral and it didnt bother me this time.....I felt poised and calm and neutral about not, not craving attention.
I do get thoughts and desires to stop EPHRA not because I cant take it no more but because I think I just jump right into OF or OGSF.......is that resistance whispering in my ears to do this because EPHRA feels boring and not noticing anything happening?
