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Hi there,
I'm writing this not to put you down, but because I recognize myself in where you are. A few years back I lost faith in my own judgment, I messed up in life and stopped listening to myself as I stopped believing I could trust myself. I got stuck in a rut where I needed other peoples Input to feel sure that what I was doing was the right thing.
The problem with that is that you just keep feeding into your own insexuriry. At some point you need to start listening to yourself, even if it don't make you fully sure on a direction, pick one, and make it your own mission to evaluate if it's the right one or not. With out time, you can switch courses, but obly after you feel compelled to do so.
That's how you build independence and security in your own judgment. Make your own calls. Evaluate. Fail. Succeed. Make your own call. That the only way to get there.
Hope it can give you some food for thought.
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I get what you're getting at, and it IS good food for thought, but there is nothing wrong with looking for external input to help me make a better informed decision. What matters is that I make one and make it definitively once I do. When I do, it's ultimately still ME making that choice. Of course I'm gonna do what I think is right. That doesn't mean however that I shouldn't weigh the decision and ask for second opinions. It's good to get second opinions so you make a better thought out decision. After all, I don't have all the answers nor have I considered every possible perspective on it. Cat Man made a really good point and I'm glad he did.
I was on the fence because I wasn't exactly sure what each option was likely to do, so I asked for input. Now I learn that UH can effectively do what OF does and more, just over a longer period of time because it has so much more ground to cover. For a while, I was worried that without OF it would take forever to get over these hurdles that keep me stuck because I had unaddressed fear. But now I see UH is helping me with that too, to some extent.
Although I also remember that UH only addresses fear that gets in the way of healing and doesn't include the full OF title without that caveat in it. So then the question becomes how much do my chief fear concerns meet that criteria and how imperative is it that I accomplish them fast?
I am still a 32 yo man who does not live independently, even if I'm living WAYY better than I used to. Procrastination (born of fear) gets in the way of me doing what I need to do to improve my situation, and my fears and inactivity get in the way of my manifestations.
So I have to take expediency into account and weigh it against the need for patience. And because I felt the time where the first runthrough was about to end, I felt I needed to be able to make this decision quickly (before the end of the month)
So asking for input can help expedite that process without making too rushed a judgement. that's why I decided to ask for input, and I think it was a good idea to do so.
I am of course actively working on my procrastination problem, but if I load myself with too much to do at once, I'll get burned out. So a degree of patience is required. Figuring out the best way to efficiently balance patience and speed of advancement.
If OF is what's needed to work on all the fears that cause me to undermine myself, it might be a better idea. Although I'm leaning towards another 6 months of UH because I'm thinking that the version of OF it has built in (which works on fear that gets in the way of healing) probably addresses the bulk of the fear that's at the root of my procrastination.
If anybody here has some insight into that which they think would better help me, your input will be appreciated. thank you Johannesbrst for sharing your experience. I will consider what you said in your post.
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So my brother and I had scheduled to go out to the beach yesterday with friends, which we did. But we forgot to bring certain basic things like sun screen. So of course I , a ginger, am burned like hell, especially in the leg area.
I am having to take Tylenol's just to keep the burning pain down and even mild, quick lukewarm showers hurt like a mf.
So I am hoping UH will help me heal this up way faster.
Currently, I do not have aloe vera or anything like that. I hope to get some at the store when I get the chance. I will note how quickly this heals.
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So... it is now 3 days since I got the sunburn.
I am noticing the redness today has definitely gone down since last night and yesterday my legs hurt less than they had the previous day. They still hurt, but much less so. Still sunburned, but healing.
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So... it's been 6 days since I got badly sunburned and instead of taking two weeks to heal, it seems to have taken six days to reach the part where I am peeling massive films of dead skin from my leg. I'm not sure if this is the normal amount of time it takes to heal or not for the level of sunburn I had. Hmm...
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Update: So... I think the burn has healed by now, but it triggered eczema which hasn't. I'm now out of my last bit of triamcinolone from my last bout with eczema and am back to using aloe vera for now. It's slowly starting to heal up as well, I think, but still itching.
As for emot5ions, I'm making progress, but it's hard to describe. I find things easier to forgive and let go of that I used to obsess over, I find it easier to enter a place of feeling good and changing my perceptions during times that don't. I feel like I'm learning to get out of my own way, vibrationally.