03-09-2025, 01:36 AM
The positive note that im more loving and empath toward my family. I dont hate it, just accepting and forgive their past mistake. They just byproduct from unloving, and abusive parents.
Im more understanding their pain, they struggle, but sometimes people and circumstance is not nice to them.
Since doing ehpra again, im more solitude, socializing is very exhausting, doing fake smile when meet people, to adjust with society. Maybe people not disrespecting me, it's just our energy doesn't match each other to become close friend or best friend material when im meet other person/people.
I have ulcers due to severe anxiety. I still need medical help for anxiety, depression and ulcers. And because of that, today I did not participate in a learning training for a university. I do not regret it, because my physical and mental condition today is not good.
Im more understanding their pain, they struggle, but sometimes people and circumstance is not nice to them.
Since doing ehpra again, im more solitude, socializing is very exhausting, doing fake smile when meet people, to adjust with society. Maybe people not disrespecting me, it's just our energy doesn't match each other to become close friend or best friend material when im meet other person/people.
I have ulcers due to severe anxiety. I still need medical help for anxiety, depression and ulcers. And because of that, today I did not participate in a learning training for a university. I do not regret it, because my physical and mental condition today is not good.
