11-10-2015, 08:03 AM
(11-09-2015, 10:37 AM)Geodude Wrote: Ironically, OF will negatively impact your self-esteem, at least it did for me. There would be days where I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. But all that shit will pass. The resistance is harsh. The real challenge is sticking to 6 months. If you think you're strong enough, 6 months will work wonders.
Interesting. Maybe it's because I ran EPRHA for a good chunk of time, but I've become very aware of negative thought loops and not getting sucked into those negative emotions.
On the subject of resistance, it's a bit like the bogeyman on this forum. Not directing this at you Geodude, just in general in case others read here. You don't have to battle with resistance and you don't have to treat it as some 500 lb gorilla that overpowers you. Behind resistance is emotions and thoughts. Sit down and ask yourself why you're resisting the sub. Put your ego aside and don't try to think more positive about it. Let your brain run wild, let it insult you, ask for more, don't try to suppress anything. We're bombarded all the time with the message that expression of negative thoughts are bad, so we suppress them or push them away but that makes it worse.
For a long time I convinced myself that because I ran so many subliminals, had done so much self help, that I was beyond negative thinking and I didn't do it. If you sit down with your thoughts and the more negative ones cause you to have a knee jerk reaction where you want to change them or feel bad for having them, you have to spend more time with them. If you find yourself saying "I ran AM6, I'm not supposed to be feeling this way" your ego is preventing the full acceptance of those more negative thoughts. Acceptance isn't about believing those thoughts or getting sucked into them, it's about acknowledging that they exist.
However, those negative thoughts do spawn from the subconscious mind and eventually the subliminals get to the source. But my main point is, if those negative thoughts aren't brought into conscious awareness they reinforce the negative emotion you are trying to heal. It's a bit like having an invisible person kicking the crap out of you. You don't know where the next hit is coming from and you don't know how to guard against it.
And to show that I'm a human with my own flaws. My mind is now telling me that what I wrote is useless information, pointless, and will help nobody. But now that I can see that thought I can choose to accept it as a manifestation of deeper subconscious issues and not get sucked into it.
