07-12-2016, 08:04 AM
Still going strong with E2. It's funny I wrote that entire post on the hows and whys of getting E2 to work better for me, but it can all be condensed into one phrase. Letting go. That's it, that simple. Letting go of the negative thoughts, beliefs, emotions and to stop holding onto them. Painfully simple in theory, incredibly complex in application if you still have remnants of guilt shame and fear still floating around in your system. Something just clicked in my head and I've taken to E2 much better. I can't consciously understand it really, it just makes sense. My only guess is that I've finally moved past that fear of letting some of this stuff go. It's funny how even when you think you're not influenced by fear it can still be there at such a subtle level and make your rationalize the crap out of your reasons why you can't let something go.
And something new popped up for me. Listening to E2 now I'm generating this intense energy of unconditional love in my body and it feels amazing. I read about others experiencing it, but I never fully got the effect. But it's like the equivalent feeling of sitting outside in peace with nature with complete calm and serenity being completely in the moment. It's like all the chaos around me doesn't even matter.
Also one more thing. Feeling this rumbling in my solar plexus while listening. Gonna guess this is one of my chakras. After reading a bit about them I think my lower chakras are very inactive. Basically I've always had this knowledge or wisdom in my life, but as far as practical application goes my life is a mess. Not being grounded enough apparently leads to this very thing. I'm feeling more connected lately to the physical and not so up in my head wishing things were different on this planet. Now hopefully I can merge the two and take all that wisdom I've gathered over the years and apply it towards making a fulfilling life for myself. A life without the limitations I've imposed on myself.
Things are starting to look up for me. I'm hoping it's smooth sailing with E2 from here on out but I can't be sure. All I know is that these past few months of running this it felt like my brain was all fogged up but now I have clarity.
And something new popped up for me. Listening to E2 now I'm generating this intense energy of unconditional love in my body and it feels amazing. I read about others experiencing it, but I never fully got the effect. But it's like the equivalent feeling of sitting outside in peace with nature with complete calm and serenity being completely in the moment. It's like all the chaos around me doesn't even matter.
Also one more thing. Feeling this rumbling in my solar plexus while listening. Gonna guess this is one of my chakras. After reading a bit about them I think my lower chakras are very inactive. Basically I've always had this knowledge or wisdom in my life, but as far as practical application goes my life is a mess. Not being grounded enough apparently leads to this very thing. I'm feeling more connected lately to the physical and not so up in my head wishing things were different on this planet. Now hopefully I can merge the two and take all that wisdom I've gathered over the years and apply it towards making a fulfilling life for myself. A life without the limitations I've imposed on myself.
Things are starting to look up for me. I'm hoping it's smooth sailing with E2 from here on out but I can't be sure. All I know is that these past few months of running this it felt like my brain was all fogged up but now I have clarity.
