06-25-2016, 04:42 AM
Man I'm a mess lately. I'm taking a hiatus from this forum for a bit to get my head on straight. I'm going back to just listening at night. So only about 8 hours of exposure a day for me. Seems like very little, but I still don't know just how much energy this sub takes up for me and I have to figure that out. I'm gonna stop pushing myself so hard to make these changes that I feel I drastically need. I feel like I've been going directly against the suggestions to heal with as little discomfort as possible in an attempt to rush things along. That intense rage was probably an indication of going too far and not respecting my limits, not a reflection of healthy emotional healing. Interestingly enough it seems fear can also effect me in a way that causes me to take on too much at once and just crash and burn. So many self defeating behaviors under different disguises.
