EHPRA Journal

[CatMan]

I don't get sudden bursts of fear, Mat.

I DO get, constant intense heat the whole time I'm listening, like I'm in a sauna, and can last a little while after stopping. I get a feeling of pressure, usually in my stomach/torso/sides area. I get a feeling of weight in the same areas, and my arms sometimes, like parts of me are suddenly WAY heavier. As I type this, my right arm is VERY VERY heavy...it's bizarre...I get feelings of sudden falling, even while sitting doing nothing and listening. Weightlessness. And, sudden, sharp, very strong pains in certain places, some go away after a few seconds, others linger for awhile, 10-15 minutes. Those obviously, are very concerning, and did NOT happen before E2.

I read about that in your journal. I think that's a result of this aspect of E2,

Physical, mental and emotional relaxation to maximize and benefit healing and regeneration.

You know how if you're hopped up on adrenaline and get hurt you can shrug it off? But later you start to feel it? I think the body is a lot like that when it comes to stress and physical issues in the body. We get stuck in an elevated state of fight or flight and then when we truly relax and let go the issues pop up. I'd take all of it as a sign of healing. Shannon mentioned E2 could be like a deep tissue massage almost and it's been my experience as well. So the heaviness is a good sign, just removing that tension that's frequently held in your muscles without even realizing it. The feeling of pressure in your stomach could be unresolved emotional issues that you can't link to any conscious reason. E2 really opens you up, it'll show you things you literally could not perceive before. As for the heat, I get that sometimes, I imagine it's just the body putting out massive energy.

I hope you're right!

I can deal with all of it no problem but the sudden, strong pains are alarming and worry me at times. Of course.

It's wild how all of these physical things are happening, I did not expect this. I got something like this ONCE during AM6, a very sharp, very deep and strong pain in my chest. Lasted a few minutes, then went away. Never came back on that program. I don't remember any during SM3, that was just blank mostly, I guess I was stonewalling it through fear.