03-11-2016, 01:31 PM
So I'm still dealing with some anxiety and avoidance. To be expected, after all the sub needs to be run for a minimum of 32 days. But I guess that's progress too because about a day or two ago I was really stressing the importance of this sub solving my problems quickly. Now I'm a lot more accepting of the possibility of old habits resurfacing. And I'll readily admit that I still deal with anxiety, it's not all gone yet, and I plan on working on that as much as possible.
Anyway, I had to call back for a job I interviewed for about a week ago. I was pretty close to putting it off, but I went through with it anyway. But I was told to call back tomorrow as the hiring manager wasn't in. So I'm still a little on edge about doing that tomorrow. I don't know what it is but I have a strong phone anxiety. Could be because it hits all those fears of the unknown. Who's going to pick up on the other end? Are they going to be nice? Am I going to be able to understand them? Will they be able to hear me clearly? Am I being too impatient with this job? Blah blah blah. You get the picture.
I guess what it boils down to is I still have a strong fear of the unknown. Which probably fuels my obsession with careful planning and researching things instead of just doing it. It's not an organizational planning, it's more like "lets see how we can prevent any awful stuff from happening". At this point it's really just paranoia and it doesn't aid me in any way at all.
Anyway, I had to call back for a job I interviewed for about a week ago. I was pretty close to putting it off, but I went through with it anyway. But I was told to call back tomorrow as the hiring manager wasn't in. So I'm still a little on edge about doing that tomorrow. I don't know what it is but I have a strong phone anxiety. Could be because it hits all those fears of the unknown. Who's going to pick up on the other end? Are they going to be nice? Am I going to be able to understand them? Will they be able to hear me clearly? Am I being too impatient with this job? Blah blah blah. You get the picture.
I guess what it boils down to is I still have a strong fear of the unknown. Which probably fuels my obsession with careful planning and researching things instead of just doing it. It's not an organizational planning, it's more like "lets see how we can prevent any awful stuff from happening". At this point it's really just paranoia and it doesn't aid me in any way at all.
