02-14-2016, 04:40 AM
I've been avoiding listening to EHPRA during the day. For now the emotional strain it puts on me makes it hard to accomplish anything during the day. I learned that the hard way. It's tempting to want to go full tilt and listen as much as possible but I've realized sometimes you just have to take it easy. I'm more productive and focused when I only keep it to 8 hours at night, for me more doesn't equal better.
That being said I notice that one of my biggest fears in life is never being happy. Just stuck in this rat race of life constantly struggling. Most of the time I push away this fear and I've learned that it's sort of like living in denial about it actually being there. When I listen to EHRPA it's like it rips it out from the deepest part of my mind and shows it to me, and it feels terrible. It feels like a combination of dread and hopelessness, something I thought I left behind from my earlier years of struggling with depression.
The thing is I've always been an all or nothing kind of guy. And you just can't do this with emotions. There's a certain limit and if you push beyond it, you're just making it harder for yourself. I failed to realize that and didn't listen to my body or mind to cut back on the subliminal. Breaking it up into smaller chunks over a longer period of time seems to be working better than trying to overcome all that emotional pain in one afternoon. It's tempting to want to go all out, but the problem is if you sink all that energy into overcoming something you don't have anything to spare for other tasks in life.
That being said I notice that one of my biggest fears in life is never being happy. Just stuck in this rat race of life constantly struggling. Most of the time I push away this fear and I've learned that it's sort of like living in denial about it actually being there. When I listen to EHRPA it's like it rips it out from the deepest part of my mind and shows it to me, and it feels terrible. It feels like a combination of dread and hopelessness, something I thought I left behind from my earlier years of struggling with depression.
The thing is I've always been an all or nothing kind of guy. And you just can't do this with emotions. There's a certain limit and if you push beyond it, you're just making it harder for yourself. I failed to realize that and didn't listen to my body or mind to cut back on the subliminal. Breaking it up into smaller chunks over a longer period of time seems to be working better than trying to overcome all that emotional pain in one afternoon. It's tempting to want to go all out, but the problem is if you sink all that energy into overcoming something you don't have anything to spare for other tasks in life.
