01-18-2014, 09:57 PM
I've discovered that in my subjectivity there's a curious connection between feeling "alpha" and "complete" (that is, non-needy) and feeling full of energy.
When I feel tired or drained, my emotional and mental state gets completely f*cked up: it's like feeling alpha and sexy and maintaining a strong aura requires a lot of energy, and whenever I find myself short on physical strenght and endurance, not only I feel totally unsexy and "not in the zone", but I go into despair about it, like I've been completely cut off from anything good in life.
The only thing left at that point would be to get some rest or go to sleep, as I can't do anything productive while I'm in that state.
This thought occured to me tonight, after taking a massive shot of vitamin B12 during an intense night out:
"If I can sustain the state, I can be (one of) the the most alpha guy(s) around"
It seems that at this point in my life it's not so hard to be the "alpha" - I think I already have a pretty good psychological foundation for that; the main issue is wanting to invest a large part of my available energy into building that state, and making it my permanent condition.
This in turn makes me wonder what happens when you're already the alpha, sexy guy, but you're pretty tired and don't really feel it.
Do other people, and women specifically, still see you in the same way?
When I feel tired or drained, my emotional and mental state gets completely f*cked up: it's like feeling alpha and sexy and maintaining a strong aura requires a lot of energy, and whenever I find myself short on physical strenght and endurance, not only I feel totally unsexy and "not in the zone", but I go into despair about it, like I've been completely cut off from anything good in life.
The only thing left at that point would be to get some rest or go to sleep, as I can't do anything productive while I'm in that state.
This thought occured to me tonight, after taking a massive shot of vitamin B12 during an intense night out:
"If I can sustain the state, I can be (one of) the the most alpha guy(s) around"
It seems that at this point in my life it's not so hard to be the "alpha" - I think I already have a pretty good psychological foundation for that; the main issue is wanting to invest a large part of my available energy into building that state, and making it my permanent condition.
This in turn makes me wonder what happens when you're already the alpha, sexy guy, but you're pretty tired and don't really feel it.
Do other people, and women specifically, still see you in the same way?
All fear is illusion.
