08-06-2014, 10:03 AM
(08-04-2014, 05:16 PM)TangoDelta Wrote: I can now confidently say I have changed drastically from where I was six months ago. It feels frickin' awesome. I feel pretty darn alpha anywhere I go now. I'm not totally 100% a true alpha male, but that's what the second run through will take care of. I started out being a needy, insecure, self hating, piece of shit, and now, I'm confident, happy with my life, and a helluva lot more productive.
And surprisingly, it was like BOOM, I all of a sudden have girls in my life. My old supervisor at work (she's currently a supervisor but not MY supervisor) told me that whenever she sees me walking around I look like a boss. She also texted me randomly one night and wants to hangout before summer is over and she moves away.
My friends and I went out to the bars one night. The only males in our group were me and my friend, the other 6 were females. Him and I were doing shots at the bar and the girls grabbed a table and there was no room for us two. So, I saw two girls sitting at another table, and I lead my friend over there, I pulled out the chairs and we sat down. The girl's wound up buying us drinks and shots. I didn't want a number or anything from them...because I'm no longer needy. I was supposed to meet one of them the following day at her work (she's a bartender) but I didn't go because I was tired and I feel like I can get any girl I want. Another bar we went to this girl offered me a cigarette which I took, but I don't inhale lol. Once again, I didn't want a phone number or anything, and she wouldn't leave me alone. The other girls in our group were shocked that I turned down her phone number.
And finally, we went to the country-rock bar and there was a live band (which I don't like because you can't dance on the stage then and there's less people there when there's a band). I didn't know any of the songs they were singing, but the lead singer, who was a super hot female, kept staring at me. It would be considered eye ***** for sure. But, since I didn't even know any of the songs, which also caused the place to be empty, I didn't stay long.
Productivity has gone through the roof too. I've been practicing blackjack/card counting like crazy, working out, sticking with my meal plans, cleaning, preparing for school, and reading. I've finally started reading all the books I've collected but never started.
Six days left of this program. As much as I'd love to run it again, I've gotta do some subs that will help with school.
Edit: And I didn't realize the connection or coincidence at first, but I've been very much into the James Bond books and movies lately.
Great to hear it's all coming together for you. I'm only on stage 1 and journals like yours make it much easier to continue when doubts start cropping up!
