12-28-2019, 02:07 AM
I am enjoying SE and the space it gives me from fear of criticism. Its freed me up to take sensible amounts of time each day to read around my work area and apply for jobs in a more sane way. My boundaries are working better as well. For example, at work they have overloaded me with tasks - this is too much to handle and they are using me to do the job of three people.- I am not stressed though, this is their problem and I have told them as such , that it's more a reflection on the boards resource decisions than me and that means my team is now being expanded.
I wanted to get a bit of my MLS brain back so I downloaded it. I whacked it on for about 4 loops just while I was working on a problem and man is it beautiful.
Again, night and day. With MLS working its magic my mind plays with problems and turns everything into an enjoyable learning experience. What's more is I didnt realise how damn slow I'd become - again. I've been struggling with some pretty basic stuff and ive been relying on my crystallised intelligence, ie my experience and memory. With MLS the world opend up with possibility as my fluid intelligence awakens and I can develop mental models on the fly, link together concepts and facts and engage in meta cognition, all while working.
To say this makes me happy is an understatement. It's always been a key desire of my life to have a mind which functions in this way. My anxiety about slowness and my competence to handle the future is massively diminished which adds another layer of freedom.
Ive done MLS and SE separately before , but now for the next year I'd like to experiment with having these go simultaneously. MLS is one day on, one day off and SE is supposedly a (relatively) simple focus fire. SE is already a part of most subs going now (I think). Im hoping that if I do a few loops on my MLS off days of SE they should support each other rather than be over draining given what I've mentioned and again given I have already run them before so to some degree the programming from both is already embedded.
I know this is not the rules so I take responsibility for any misfires as a result of me going off piste with these two subs in particular.
I wanted to get a bit of my MLS brain back so I downloaded it. I whacked it on for about 4 loops just while I was working on a problem and man is it beautiful.
Again, night and day. With MLS working its magic my mind plays with problems and turns everything into an enjoyable learning experience. What's more is I didnt realise how damn slow I'd become - again. I've been struggling with some pretty basic stuff and ive been relying on my crystallised intelligence, ie my experience and memory. With MLS the world opend up with possibility as my fluid intelligence awakens and I can develop mental models on the fly, link together concepts and facts and engage in meta cognition, all while working.
To say this makes me happy is an understatement. It's always been a key desire of my life to have a mind which functions in this way. My anxiety about slowness and my competence to handle the future is massively diminished which adds another layer of freedom.
Ive done MLS and SE separately before , but now for the next year I'd like to experiment with having these go simultaneously. MLS is one day on, one day off and SE is supposedly a (relatively) simple focus fire. SE is already a part of most subs going now (I think). Im hoping that if I do a few loops on my MLS off days of SE they should support each other rather than be over draining given what I've mentioned and again given I have already run them before so to some degree the programming from both is already embedded.
I know this is not the rules so I take responsibility for any misfires as a result of me going off piste with these two subs in particular.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
