07-11-2018, 12:26 PM
Encountering the first stonewalling I’ve had since the beginning - I noticed it was stone walking because it was so much like previous sub experiences and wasn’t like what I’ve experienced on this sub and the self esteem sub - just unchallengeable numbness like I may as well be listening to cars driving by - only slightly annoying and a feeling of futility.
It turned back onto itself though when I asked can this be a learning opportunity - from there I found myself in an enquiry about ‘what is it about my current situation and myself that I am just unwilling to accept’. It took a while but I got there.
You see I’m in a situation where I’ve put myself in a weak position at work and I’ve got competitors breathing down my neck, it makes me feel helpless and like everyone is against me. Anyway I could go on about why addressing this and accepting it and all the reactions has freed me up again and re awoken my execution of the sub but I don’t feel like it right now. Maybe later
It turned back onto itself though when I asked can this be a learning opportunity - from there I found myself in an enquiry about ‘what is it about my current situation and myself that I am just unwilling to accept’. It took a while but I got there.
You see I’m in a situation where I’ve put myself in a weak position at work and I’ve got competitors breathing down my neck, it makes me feel helpless and like everyone is against me. Anyway I could go on about why addressing this and accepting it and all the reactions has freed me up again and re awoken my execution of the sub but I don’t feel like it right now. Maybe later
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
