11-16-2017, 05:39 AM
I've lost track of where I am in terms of how long I've been on this Sub. If there have been changes since I last used it then they are subtle or naturalised to the point where I can't notice. Some tangibles to note though.
Meeting anxiety, and generally anxiety about interacting with people I previously deemed intimidating has diminished to near zero.
My focus and concentration is still pretty low. I've been doing Dual N-Back training recently which seems to be helping, though it has woken me up to how under developed some of my brain function is, particularly with working memory. I'm going to continue doing this training but it really feels like chewing glass. I can't actually get passed N=4 (which should indicate the level of retarded i'm currently at).
I've lost about 16 lbs and gone from being very overweight to average in about 4 weeks - this is purely through reforming my diet, I was having ridiculous amounts of white carbs and high sugar processed food, losing weight has just been a function of having a normal, not shit bag diet. The next stage will be to bring in regular gym training to build up muscle and increase my basal metabolic rate. I am not over extending myself at all. Very much in it for the long haul, so no going ape with trying to have all the results in the world yesterday in order to feel like I'm 'ok'
Finances are better than ever, I've stopped spending on BS and begun putting aside around 70% of my monthly income - I'm developing a simple savings strategy through low cost funds to ensure that - if I don't make millions as an entrepreneur - I at least don't shoot myself in the balls with poor money management.
I'm continuing this sub indefinitely, but at some point I need to have a break and get a booster shot on the presence via either the AM6 refresher or DMSI 3.2 when it's out.
I've become better at being honest and expressing my feelings, having difficult adult conversations with people I love, and people who have crossed the line with me, taking more and more responsibility for how my relationships show up. Recently had a problem with someone I was managing/coaching - had a total attitude problem. My normal approach would be to either switch off because 'there's nothing you can do with people like that', but this time I pushed and constructively challenged, remaining neutral and keeping to principles over emotion; the result was they totally apologised (after first arguing and then walking away) and admitted that their behaviour had been a pattern that had gone on through out their whole lives - they thanked me for the challenge and said they needed it!.
Hmm, maybe that's more than I thought.
Meeting anxiety, and generally anxiety about interacting with people I previously deemed intimidating has diminished to near zero.
My focus and concentration is still pretty low. I've been doing Dual N-Back training recently which seems to be helping, though it has woken me up to how under developed some of my brain function is, particularly with working memory. I'm going to continue doing this training but it really feels like chewing glass. I can't actually get passed N=4 (which should indicate the level of retarded i'm currently at).
I've lost about 16 lbs and gone from being very overweight to average in about 4 weeks - this is purely through reforming my diet, I was having ridiculous amounts of white carbs and high sugar processed food, losing weight has just been a function of having a normal, not shit bag diet. The next stage will be to bring in regular gym training to build up muscle and increase my basal metabolic rate. I am not over extending myself at all. Very much in it for the long haul, so no going ape with trying to have all the results in the world yesterday in order to feel like I'm 'ok'
Finances are better than ever, I've stopped spending on BS and begun putting aside around 70% of my monthly income - I'm developing a simple savings strategy through low cost funds to ensure that - if I don't make millions as an entrepreneur - I at least don't shoot myself in the balls with poor money management.
I'm continuing this sub indefinitely, but at some point I need to have a break and get a booster shot on the presence via either the AM6 refresher or DMSI 3.2 when it's out.
I've become better at being honest and expressing my feelings, having difficult adult conversations with people I love, and people who have crossed the line with me, taking more and more responsibility for how my relationships show up. Recently had a problem with someone I was managing/coaching - had a total attitude problem. My normal approach would be to either switch off because 'there's nothing you can do with people like that', but this time I pushed and constructively challenged, remaining neutral and keeping to principles over emotion; the result was they totally apologised (after first arguing and then walking away) and admitted that their behaviour had been a pattern that had gone on through out their whole lives - they thanked me for the challenge and said they needed it!.
Hmm, maybe that's more than I thought.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
