DMSI journey- now at 3.5

[Benjamin]

Nice man.. she sounds retarded with that dumb behaviour. Though usually when girls say "we aren't having sex" it means "we are having sex". But the reaction to her hair was weird.

Your reponse was good, my guess is she will be chasing you even harder now.

[Light]

I can bet all my money she will try to contact you again.your frame is so good man.

[Ymiraku]

Sounds like she was trying to shit test you or something, and when she responded badly when you touched her hair because she has some insecurities about her appearance etc.

Tbh she probably just expected you to use her for sex.

[Theron]

Thanks for the encouragement guys. let's see what happens.

Today I had a milonga, a social dance event for Tango. Usually, I have high energy in Milonga and dance with a lot of women. Today I was feeling a bit sad and had no energy to do anything. I had no motivation to be a part of the scene. Which is kinda unusual for me. Is this resistance?
Has my body used too much energy in yesterday's encounter?
I just had one drink and then had a almost 2 liters of water to ensure I am hydrated. So it can't be booze. Came home early and still feeling a bit low...

[Sanbosay]

Thanks for the encouragement guys. let's see what happens.

Today I had a milonga, a social dance event for Tango. Usually, I have high energy in Milonga and dance with a lot of women. Today I was feeling a bit sad and had no energy to do anything. I had no motivation to be a part of the scene. Which is kinda unusual for me. Is this resistance?
Has my body used too much energy in yesterday's encounter?
I just had one drink and then had a almost 2 liters of water to ensure I am hydrated. So it can't be booze. Came home early and still feeling a bit low...

Maybe your body has used too much energy. I'm not sure if you know that booze kills the effect of DMSI. But I do understand about not having the motivation/ energy to socialize.

I felt exactly the same way on Saturday at a club I DJ at I had to leave and luckily for me I didn't have to spin that night otherwise it would have been a nightmare also I'd like to know if no energy/motivation is some kind of SubC resistance?

Shannon?

[Theron]

I am now in a Tango festival surrounded by hot chicks everywhere!! The right place to be. I am getting good attention from women everywhere, easy connections, eye contact. Now in tango this all easy as a part of the culture. But the women coming and sitting next to and initiating conversation is new. Yesterday, unfortunately, I had to run DMSI when I was partially high on weed as I did not find the time any other time unless I break the ASrB. I am hoping to find a slot when I can listen to it undisturbed.
more to follow soon. this would be a perfect place to execute execute execute!!!

[Theron]

I had a date on the last day of the festival. Nothing overtly sexual but a good flow of conversation. But whats striking was the lack of motivation after the date ended. We were supposed to go to a milonga, the social dance after dinner. But I had no mood to dance anymore. When I entered the venue I had every intention of staying till late and dancing. But within about 30 minutes, I felt like leaving. Some may call it depression or anxiety. But I choose not label myself with any of those heavy words. The feeling was quite similar to the one I experienced the day after I met up with the cute fat chick last Sunday.
coincidence or a pattern?

[Theron]

I am noticing another pattern with 3.2
I go for about 7-10 days without fapping and them bam! I get very tired and find relief in fapping and that goes on 2-3 days, once a day and then once again, no fap.last month I took a religious oath to be no fap for 15 days and didn't find it hard.

But even with the 3.2 the urge is the hardest one day,( or a couple of hours) after the date, which is when I feel exhausted. And no, I don't need porn at all to tap.

[Zane]

I am noticing another pattern with 3.2
I go for about 7-10 days without fapping and them bam! I get very tired and find relief in fapping and that goes on 2-3 days, once a day and then once again, no fap.last month I took a religious oath to be no fap for 15 days and didn't find it hard.

But even with the 3.2 the urge is the hardest one day,( or a couple of hours) after the date, which is when I feel exhausted. And no, I don't need porn at all to tap.

Ever since I have started 3.2B my fapping frequency has increased. To a point where I am sick of it. I dont even remember how many times have I busted my nuts.

I am 100% sure this resistance and my subc is trying to escape but man I really want to go atleast a week out a fap. I cant stop.

First few days I was able to control it but then..BAM!!

Good thing is that my sleep pattern has been fixed and my appetite is back. I am regularly having my Breakfast,Lunch,Brunch,tea time,dinner water intake everything..Even my depression is kinda lifted off and I am reading my "Forex Books" but this fapping is getting in the way...

I wonder how much time its gonna take until I get of of this mess.

[Theron]

Day 30
It was a no play day today as it was ASRB2 for my listening cycle. I had stopped some important Hypnosis work to taste DMSI 3.2. No conflicted on delaying the hypnosis work so I may choose to wait out till 3.3 as I have about 2 -3 months of work to be done with Kasina. and Shannon says dont mix anything with this.
How do I know if this is resistance speaking or not? I interrupted the hypnosis work to test DMSI and now lagging behind on my plan for the year. I had planned to do a month of DMSi and then returning to my hypnosis work even before I started the first loop of 3.2

[Theron]

Round 2 Day 2 on 3.2A
Exhausting is one way to describe this version. Right from the first day's first loop, it was quite exhausting. After 7 days run,I still feel the exhaustion. Monday was my day off the sub and it still felt heavy. yesterday, which was first day after the ASRB2 break. i had some interesting dreams . One dream was about a close friend who is a very attractive girl, bending in to kiss me and I was surprised,even in the dream. Another dream was abt a girl who i had kissed once in the past (during 3.1 run I think) but she has drifted away.
Apart from these two dream I have not see anything else worth mentioning.

[Theron]

Had an interesting evening today. noticed a super hot girl sitting right in front of me at Metro, she was too hot to be on the train I tell ya :-)
It was nice to notice that my breathing was normal, my behaviour did not go into a hyper mode or anything as it used to do in the past. There was no IOI or anything. But the fact that I am starting to hotter girls around is a good sign.

In the Tango class today I had a lot more fun than ever before. Almost all the girls I danced with were laughing hard when I made some silly observation. Even a girl who is usually grumpy, who I have never seen laugh before was laughing loud enough that the instructor came to ask whats going on. I don't even recall what I said, but guess it worked. It was nice to have that kinda reaction around the girls.Feels good.
Oh yeah, another important thing, I made a few small adjustments to the clothes I wear and felt really good when I left the house, like a million bucks!!!

[Theron]

After a very long time, I had a sex dream. This involves a married woman who used to work with me and was a good friend of mine for several years.I was deeply attracted to her but since she was married, I never initiated anything beyond mild flirting. But almost everyone in my group knew that I liked her a lot. maybe even she knew. Anyways.
For some reason, I cut off the entire group and her from my life a year ago.

Today all of a sudden I had a dream about her. She is still married but was sleeping in the same bed as me, along with another girl, and we were just sleeping from what I recall. Then suddenly she reaches out with her hand and touches my dick ( are we allowed to say that?) and slowly starts stroking, I open my eyes and she is looking right at me, so I position myself to penetrate her and she comes closer, once I get in, someone puts on a light and she masterly changes direction so no ones knows whats happening below the sheets. And after that I tell her, jee mom will be furious if she finds out there is a girl here. Then its all a blur

This dream falls a similar theme wherein almost all my sex dreams I get interrupted.
IRL, I stay with my mom and we have an understanding that I won't bring girls home, so logistically it's challenging sometimes, but it's not a debilitating issue, you can always (and I have) find ways around it.
But its kinda irritating to see that I cant get some in the dreams, call me silly but it gets irritating.
So it looks like 3.2A is bringing up old stuff and clearing it.

[Benjamin]

Haha yes that's fine to say that man.