01-31-2019, 05:46 PM
So in post 67 a few days ago, I talked about desirability and the realizations of that from my somatic work.
So I did some more somatic work today, and had a deeper realization: I'm totally scared of people.
It feels super old, from a super young part of me, but I realized during the work that a very young part of me is terrified that people are going to hurt me. Not in some deep psychological sense of "being hurt", but in a very real, 6-year-old-me sense of wanting to be happy and someone straight up causing me physical and emotional pain.
It's not very surprising that my subconscious sees a push to connect to people, and in particular, being open enough to have women want me, as a threat.
So I did some more somatic work today, and had a deeper realization: I'm totally scared of people.
It feels super old, from a super young part of me, but I realized during the work that a very young part of me is terrified that people are going to hurt me. Not in some deep psychological sense of "being hurt", but in a very real, 6-year-old-me sense of wanting to be happy and someone straight up causing me physical and emotional pain.
It's not very surprising that my subconscious sees a push to connect to people, and in particular, being open enough to have women want me, as a threat.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
