01-15-2019, 10:08 AM
Day 37
I'm still listening to DMSI for 5 loops a day.
My sleep has cratered. I'm waking super exhausted and have been doing so for about a week now. This has coincided with: 1. particularly cold weather, 2. arousal work with my somatic healer, 3. energy work with my energy healer. Perhaps DMSI has something to do with it, perhaps it doesn't. I used to have poor sleep like this for months at a time, so this isn't anything new, but it kinda sucks; I was starting to feel all sexy and in my body.
There's a bit of an unsettled feeling reading the discussion about FRM 4.4. I'm all for the new version of DMSI that will have it, and I hope it unlocks things for me. But it really feels like I'm at the mercy of that part of me, at the mercy of its sheer terror at physically existing. I'm trying to draw the fine line between fighting it (by keeping at listening to DMSI, etc) and surviving it (not getting in situations where I know it will crush me and leave me in a worse emotional situation than I was in before). And so while I want FRM to loosen the grips that it has on me so I can push myself further, I find myself reacting to the discussion about "resistance" with some shame about not being able to do better than I can.
Not asking for the discussion to be different, just noting my reactions to it.
And excitedly awaiting the new FRM to see what it can do.
I'm still listening to DMSI for 5 loops a day.
My sleep has cratered. I'm waking super exhausted and have been doing so for about a week now. This has coincided with: 1. particularly cold weather, 2. arousal work with my somatic healer, 3. energy work with my energy healer. Perhaps DMSI has something to do with it, perhaps it doesn't. I used to have poor sleep like this for months at a time, so this isn't anything new, but it kinda sucks; I was starting to feel all sexy and in my body.
There's a bit of an unsettled feeling reading the discussion about FRM 4.4. I'm all for the new version of DMSI that will have it, and I hope it unlocks things for me. But it really feels like I'm at the mercy of that part of me, at the mercy of its sheer terror at physically existing. I'm trying to draw the fine line between fighting it (by keeping at listening to DMSI, etc) and surviving it (not getting in situations where I know it will crush me and leave me in a worse emotional situation than I was in before). And so while I want FRM to loosen the grips that it has on me so I can push myself further, I find myself reacting to the discussion about "resistance" with some shame about not being able to do better than I can.
Not asking for the discussion to be different, just noting my reactions to it.
And excitedly awaiting the new FRM to see what it can do.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
