12-17-2018, 07:29 PM
Day 11
Average day more or less today. The main thing of note After work I was at the store had a couple of black girls doing some shopping they kept running into, always past me extra slow clearly into. I wasn't so much attracted to them. Only attracted to their liking me. So of course I'm indifferent to them. I have noticed that a lot many times ok looking girls be attracted to me, and I just like the fact they are attracted to me. So far only been a few cases where I felt enough attraction for a random girl that it cause me to act or try to make something happen. Seems like most girls just going to only do so much to start things. Haven't seen any direct obviously signs of interest that she's ready. Also only very few times where I thought the girl was really attractive enough to warrant ether me doing something or letting something happen. I mean I want sex but also have to have some kind of standards. Not just going to be with any old thing that comes along. My confidence and sex drive have continued to increase. I feeling noticed and important able to stand my group in interactions more. Feeling less trying to make something happen wanting them to make the first move. All good stuff. Also my desire and the effect of porn has had a much less effect on me usually getting bored with it and wanted to be a real woman. So progress is differently being made. Of course like I've said in all the previous version od dmsi I want more. More actually people initiating sex or in a way I can tell that's what they trying to. I'm going to have more of that
Average day more or less today. The main thing of note After work I was at the store had a couple of black girls doing some shopping they kept running into, always past me extra slow clearly into. I wasn't so much attracted to them. Only attracted to their liking me. So of course I'm indifferent to them. I have noticed that a lot many times ok looking girls be attracted to me, and I just like the fact they are attracted to me. So far only been a few cases where I felt enough attraction for a random girl that it cause me to act or try to make something happen. Seems like most girls just going to only do so much to start things. Haven't seen any direct obviously signs of interest that she's ready. Also only very few times where I thought the girl was really attractive enough to warrant ether me doing something or letting something happen. I mean I want sex but also have to have some kind of standards. Not just going to be with any old thing that comes along. My confidence and sex drive have continued to increase. I feeling noticed and important able to stand my group in interactions more. Feeling less trying to make something happen wanting them to make the first move. All good stuff. Also my desire and the effect of porn has had a much less effect on me usually getting bored with it and wanted to be a real woman. So progress is differently being made. Of course like I've said in all the previous version od dmsi I want more. More actually people initiating sex or in a way I can tell that's what they trying to. I'm going to have more of that
