07-05-2018, 06:26 PM
Super highs to mega lows pretty much a super roller coaster going on with me and dancer. We fight we make up pretty much a cycle going on. As of late been through a bit drama as everybody in our social circle things were together having sex sex which sadly as as long as this as been going on hasn't happened. Which in some ways is good so it would make it less complicated and easier to walk away from it. The other side she dose have another guy she's with as do I have other friends with benefits from even before I was using dmsi.
Her main guy is in a bad shape with lots do drinking problems and mental problems depression PTSD stuff. Dancer had been taking care of him sort of and somewhere along the way started hanging around me and of course got closer over time as well. The problem being is she kind of likes both of us in a while which I was cool with cause I was never looking for anything serious anyway however because of her situation as being taken etc she keeps denying her feelings towards me and wants to have me now as just a buddy that she can feel safe with aka: the friend zone. I let her know that I'm not settling for something like and pretty much made it clear that ether I was going to be a friend and see where it goes or nothing not just a buddy. So last few days no contact with her as it's pretty much a state mate. Although I do care for her she dose have a lot of problems as well as like to hogged a lot of attention that should be going towards other girls that might need my help. One thing I was thinking our relationship got stronger on 3.2 and or the break between 3.1 when we took that month off for the update. On a positive note I did have a young black girl sit down in front of me seem like she at least gave me the look over. She seemed to be on her phone and despite the no flap been staying strong couldn't get myself up to go talk to her in that still had the feeling that she should be opening me. So nothing happened today
On a side note the headphone just seems to be a lot more intense than listening with speaker sometimes I have no choice but to use the because of time restrictions but every time I use headphones I get more of a impact. Been using Version A for a while now and I do feel a lot stronger thanks to all that heeling. I'm still feeling no desire to cold approach women as I know that would help things along. Every time I start trying to go out and make it happen I get hit with a feeling it's they should be Initiating more but of course I only get looks ioi's or close walk byes which is something but nothing enough for something to happen. I did meet one girl while I was at work very sexual person not really physically what I was looking for so I never called her. So some girls are manifesting my way. Still seems I have a long way to go where girls are Initiating things with me like in the goals of the program. Though I have come a long way from where I started. Like the version before still need a version that can put me over the top, get the girl or good enough to have a stream coming in.
Her main guy is in a bad shape with lots do drinking problems and mental problems depression PTSD stuff. Dancer had been taking care of him sort of and somewhere along the way started hanging around me and of course got closer over time as well. The problem being is she kind of likes both of us in a while which I was cool with cause I was never looking for anything serious anyway however because of her situation as being taken etc she keeps denying her feelings towards me and wants to have me now as just a buddy that she can feel safe with aka: the friend zone. I let her know that I'm not settling for something like and pretty much made it clear that ether I was going to be a friend and see where it goes or nothing not just a buddy. So last few days no contact with her as it's pretty much a state mate. Although I do care for her she dose have a lot of problems as well as like to hogged a lot of attention that should be going towards other girls that might need my help. One thing I was thinking our relationship got stronger on 3.2 and or the break between 3.1 when we took that month off for the update. On a positive note I did have a young black girl sit down in front of me seem like she at least gave me the look over. She seemed to be on her phone and despite the no flap been staying strong couldn't get myself up to go talk to her in that still had the feeling that she should be opening me. So nothing happened today
On a side note the headphone just seems to be a lot more intense than listening with speaker sometimes I have no choice but to use the because of time restrictions but every time I use headphones I get more of a impact. Been using Version A for a while now and I do feel a lot stronger thanks to all that heeling. I'm still feeling no desire to cold approach women as I know that would help things along. Every time I start trying to go out and make it happen I get hit with a feeling it's they should be Initiating more but of course I only get looks ioi's or close walk byes which is something but nothing enough for something to happen. I did meet one girl while I was at work very sexual person not really physically what I was looking for so I never called her. So some girls are manifesting my way. Still seems I have a long way to go where girls are Initiating things with me like in the goals of the program. Though I have come a long way from where I started. Like the version before still need a version that can put me over the top, get the girl or good enough to have a stream coming in.
