02-28-2018, 11:27 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-28-2018, 11:28 PM by Shadow2200.)
Day 7-8
Today I guess my my mp3 player was having some issues. The track keep staticing up on me I guessing I broke ASRB but continued through it non the less. Been reading how there can be a rage in the cage/machine and I'm starting to feel it. In that I guess normally have some release to porn and now feeling no to desire to escape to that, now I'm left with no sex at the moment but pinned up rage and desire. Starting to see how that wall is going to make ya execute no matter what with no escape routs. So I'm positive but full off pinned desire and rage. The wall is very powerful indeed.
The meeting went well dancer friend was there again and we as flirted as usual, as well as the young singer girl and various other girls most of whom was too older or way too large. As things move along getting very hard to resist doing something to dancer girl. Tonight after her performance she was playing with her hair, and playing with a baby in front of me. As usual sniper aura fires off strong, and it takes a toll on me just having her around cause it always fires up. It's the same thing for young singer girl but less strong. With new sub I can diffidently feel who I like and want to have sex with. The rage comes in cause the desire to be with them is strong and as of yet very has come of it, Mainly because of logistics and or the girl being judged by someone if they act a certain way. So it's just this constant game of they like me but they have to hide it kind of of deal. After a while get's kind of of old.
Later after the dancer and singer girls left I got jumped by multiple older cougar girls that saw I was open so they just came right up to me started talking. The married one kind of took me by surprise in how bold got in my space which she had done before but it had been a long time. I had little attraction for ether of them but they did give me attention so that was good. The girls I was attracted to the most both bailed on me. So aura is working wall is working now I just need a release for this rage desire.
Today I guess my my mp3 player was having some issues. The track keep staticing up on me I guessing I broke ASRB but continued through it non the less. Been reading how there can be a rage in the cage/machine and I'm starting to feel it. In that I guess normally have some release to porn and now feeling no to desire to escape to that, now I'm left with no sex at the moment but pinned up rage and desire. Starting to see how that wall is going to make ya execute no matter what with no escape routs. So I'm positive but full off pinned desire and rage. The wall is very powerful indeed.
The meeting went well dancer friend was there again and we as flirted as usual, as well as the young singer girl and various other girls most of whom was too older or way too large. As things move along getting very hard to resist doing something to dancer girl. Tonight after her performance she was playing with her hair, and playing with a baby in front of me. As usual sniper aura fires off strong, and it takes a toll on me just having her around cause it always fires up. It's the same thing for young singer girl but less strong. With new sub I can diffidently feel who I like and want to have sex with. The rage comes in cause the desire to be with them is strong and as of yet very has come of it, Mainly because of logistics and or the girl being judged by someone if they act a certain way. So it's just this constant game of they like me but they have to hide it kind of of deal. After a while get's kind of of old.
Later after the dancer and singer girls left I got jumped by multiple older cougar girls that saw I was open so they just came right up to me started talking. The married one kind of took me by surprise in how bold got in my space which she had done before but it had been a long time. I had little attraction for ether of them but they did give me attention so that was good. The girls I was attracted to the most both bailed on me. So aura is working wall is working now I just need a release for this rage desire.
