10-23-2016, 11:03 AM
(10-23-2016, 10:42 AM)Alpha360 Wrote:(10-23-2016, 10:07 AM)Duke.Togo Wrote: Day 9 and 10Thanks for that great report, it's really entertaining
A quick update, as I am still processing something.
On day 9 I received a call from a woman I know who asked me out to breakfast. We got together and afterwards we went back to her place. She had always been really resistant to me previously, but within an hour we were having sex.
I left afterwards as I felt in my head too much. The sex was great, It was the most passionate I had felt in some time. I had a really strong orgasm.
Last night I went to bed fairly early, around midnight. I woke up 3 hours later from a nightmare, and I literally screamed at the top of my lungs. Loud enough that my neighbor came knocking on my door asking if I was OK.
Usually I don't remember nightmares when I have them, and it's been at least a few years since I last had one. But I remembered last nights. In the dream I was in a maze of sorts, and I fell asleep. Whether in real life or in the dream, I can't tell anymore, I woke up, I saw that I had been sealed in into a coffin of some sort.
At that point I screamed. I had this feeling of absolute terror. I can't ever remember feeling like I did last night.
I went back to bed after I told my neighbor I was fine and apologized for the noise. Thankfully they were really cool and more so concerned than bothered by what happened.
I continued to run DMSI and fell back asleep.
I've noticed with version 2.5 that more and more of the users have been dropping off. Chaos had been contemplating it for some time, but Illumi and Eternity have also stopped using it.
After last night, I thought of taking a break. But I decided against it. I'm a glutton for pain and I want to work through whatever it is that's coming to surface with 2.5.
I've also noticed something of a side effect with 2.5, and that is while the goal of the program is to get me to be more desirable to women, I find that, and this could be an effect of the P4 technology amongst other things, that anything I expose myself to with a strong intention also starts to morph with my reality and is affected as a change in my personality.
I don't know if I can explain this well, but, I spend a lot of time reading investment journals and I read Think and Grow Rich a little everyday. It's just one of my favorite books and I just enjoy reading it, not so much for the message, but just the amount of history that it documents of events that happened. Anyway, because of my, I guess strong attraction to these things, I am finding myself morphing and looking at these things differently now too.
I'm wondering if the sniper technology goes beyond women and into some other things that we are attracted to.
This is only an observation on my part, and it may be a by-product and it may go away in the future, but something is definitely happening really strongly inside of me. I just can't really articulate it very well.
I like the nightmare report, I had the same on 2.4. I miss those extreme reaction, I prefer that to the boredom resistance. I feels so good not to be bored and have something crazy like that happen, it makes me laugh after the fear calm down.
The girl you had sex with, can you add some details, like how did you met? do you think it's a manifestation, will you keep her as a partner, etc
Thanks.
Agreed, I like the extreme nature that 2.5 seems to be enveloping me in. It's definitely better for me than 2.4 was, even though I'm having nightmares. I know that this is what is ultimately going to push me into a foundation.
The woman was someone I knew for some time, pre-DMSI. However, again, she was always pretty resistant to me.
Yesterday, she just called me out of the blue for breakfast. As I mentioned, after breakfast she invited me back to her place. Nothing unusual as I had been there previously, but, within an hour of being there, we had sex.
She didn't initiate it totally, and autopilot had a lot to do with it, but I just went for it after a while and she didn't resist. She was really responsive and turned on and she had a few orgasms. After I had mine, I just swooped into my own head. It's hard to explain, but there was something else that was playing in my mind. About half an hour after we finished having sex I told her I had to head back to my place, there was some work I needed to finish.
She did call me again last night and asked me to come back and stay at her place if I was done with work. I told her I couldn't make it and we know how the rest of my night turned out.
Will I stay with her - probably not. I'm not the kind of person that can really settle down with a steady girlfriend. I think the coffin bit is an example of that as well. I feel boxed in. I tend to keep all of my relationships casual.
Actually, the same thing happened on Friday night with the blonde. She was really sexually responsive to me, rubbing her body on me and even at one point taking the back of my hand and rubbing it on her breast. The best part was when she started making out with her best friend, my friends new girlfriend. It was a wild and fun night. And I enjoyed it because it was casual.
These days I tend more and more to feel like I don't want to be tied to anything really. Just be on a plane and in a foreign city somewhere working remotely through a system while making capital.
And more and more, I have opportunities to move into that kind of a lifestyle. So we'll see what happens.
But this is all part of the state shift that is happening with 2.5. I'm not entirely sure of everything that is happening, I just know something is happening.