Before I go into what happened over the past two days, which wasn't much really considering that I have been down for the count with one of the worst colds I've had in years - which coincidentally started as soon as I finished my first day with 2.5. I think I finally understand the clearing that was happening with 2.4. I'll write more about it in day 3, but it's only after I stopped 2.4 do I realize what it was doing and how impactful it was. Also, nothing in todays post is about women.
Day 2
First things first - a piece of advice. Do not go over the recommended loops with DMSI.
I didn't realize my iTunes was on loop and I was down 4 and a half loops before I shut it off. And the rest of the day I felt like a bulldozer had run through my skull. Not pleasant at all....
I had dreams the second night of running DMSI where I was being AMOG'd by a guy. I don't remember all of the details, but it was so real. I do remember finally lashing out at the guy, but the thing that struck me is how calm he was while I was angry.
Anyway, after all of that I woke up and found myself down with the cold. I didn't go out at all.
Day 3
This is where I realized the clearing effects that came up. I had an uncle who when I was growing up, was considered the enemy. In so many ways, all of my most important life lessons I learned from him and there were times when he and I were like friends, and other times he'd lecture me for hours on how I was f*cking up my life.
In many ways he was right. Anyway, as I got older, the anger tapered off and we really did become close. He passed away almost a decade ago now. Last night I had a dream with my aunt in it, his wife, and she was telling me about him. About how I was the only one who ever really understood him and that he was hardest on me because he expected the most from me.
When I woke up, I looked back at my time, and I realize he never called me a loser. He always said that I shouldn't become a loser. He also was the one who got me a video camera after I graduated high school, because I wanted to be a film maker.
I say this, because memory is a funny thing. There's the thing that happened, and the way we interpreted it. Anyway, after the dream, I felt like something changed in me again. That cleared something deep within me.
So I think this is more of an effect of 2.4 than it is 2.5. But I woke up feeling so good, like a piece of me finally healed and let go.
Now if only I could kick this cold and get back out there...
Day 2
First things first - a piece of advice. Do not go over the recommended loops with DMSI.
I didn't realize my iTunes was on loop and I was down 4 and a half loops before I shut it off. And the rest of the day I felt like a bulldozer had run through my skull. Not pleasant at all....
I had dreams the second night of running DMSI where I was being AMOG'd by a guy. I don't remember all of the details, but it was so real. I do remember finally lashing out at the guy, but the thing that struck me is how calm he was while I was angry.
Anyway, after all of that I woke up and found myself down with the cold. I didn't go out at all.
Day 3
This is where I realized the clearing effects that came up. I had an uncle who when I was growing up, was considered the enemy. In so many ways, all of my most important life lessons I learned from him and there were times when he and I were like friends, and other times he'd lecture me for hours on how I was f*cking up my life.
In many ways he was right. Anyway, as I got older, the anger tapered off and we really did become close. He passed away almost a decade ago now. Last night I had a dream with my aunt in it, his wife, and she was telling me about him. About how I was the only one who ever really understood him and that he was hardest on me because he expected the most from me.
When I woke up, I looked back at my time, and I realize he never called me a loser. He always said that I shouldn't become a loser. He also was the one who got me a video camera after I graduated high school, because I wanted to be a film maker.
I say this, because memory is a funny thing. There's the thing that happened, and the way we interpreted it. Anyway, after the dream, I felt like something changed in me again. That cleared something deep within me.
So I think this is more of an effect of 2.4 than it is 2.5. But I woke up feeling so good, like a piece of me finally healed and let go.
Now if only I could kick this cold and get back out there...
