09-26-2017, 05:36 PM
I think I’m going through another “low” day(s). Feeling insecure, uninspired, cumbersome, unattractive, tired .... you name it, I got it.
Subliminal Talk
by Indigo Mind Labs
09-26-2017, 05:36 PM
I think I’m going through another “low” day(s). Feeling insecure, uninspired, cumbersome, unattractive, tired .... you name it, I got it.
09-30-2017, 11:54 PM
Don’t really know what happened. Got ditched without any reason for the second date. There was constant communication during the week, and he would even explain and apologised if he was radio silent for longer than a few hours due to work commitments without me asking anything. There were still texts to indicate the date would be carrying on this morning, then he has been radio silent for the past 8 hours which has passed the planned pickup time. oh well, it’s out of his character, but I guess it’s easier just to disappear.
10-01-2017, 03:16 AM
(09-25-2017, 06:39 AM)kalmah0804 Wrote:(09-24-2017, 06:02 PM)RTBoss Wrote:(09-24-2017, 04:16 PM)kalmah0804 Wrote: This has been my experience on DMSI as well. You'll go from on top of the world noticing every single attractive person oogling at you like you were a greek god/goddess to soulcrushing desolate depression and despair. It's really not an easy sub to stick with, but that being said, when I did stick with 3.01-A, I had some of the best results in my entire life, and even though the resistance in 3.1-A is infinitely more turbulent and difficult than any other sub I have ever run from Shannon, I'd imagine that had I stuck with my original 3.1-A run for more than the first 32 days, I would have experienced even more insane results. was she getting hit on?
10-01-2017, 03:51 AM
(09-30-2017, 11:54 PM)Purple Jade Wrote: Don’t really know what happened. Got ditched without any reason for the second date. There was constant communication during the week, and he would even explain and apologised if he was radio silent for longer than a few hours due to work commitments without me asking anything. There were still texts to indicate the date would be carrying on this morning, then he has been radio silent for the past 8 hours which has passed the planned pickup time. oh well, it’s out of his character, but I guess it’s easier just to disappear. This has happened to me all the time on DMSI. I think it's part of the "Ghosting" other people are experiencing. One minute, insane attraction, the next, it's as if you don't even exist in the other person's eyes. Oh well--the important thing to remain fixed on, especially in the early phases, are personal growth and development from within--results will come only once you've achieved that inner strength and emotional availability that will result in you becoming your most sexually attractive form. Sexuality isn't just about pure physicality, it's a lot to do with emotional connection, your personality, your character, the vibes (or "aura" I guess) you give off. These things will build with time, and there will be many more men in your life eventually, probably who are much more attractive to you both sexually and otherwise. Adrien Silva Wrote:was she getting hit on? I couldn't tell you that as she spent the whole day out with her friends, but I know that they way that she was dressed up and had done her hair and makeup and things was far beyond what she normally does for when she goes out. I mean, hell, this may sound fucked up, but if she wasn't my sister, and I was just some ordinary normal guy walking past her in the street on that day, my jaw would have hit the floor. And again, our entire lives, my sister has definitely been the better looking one out of the two of us, but she still looked fairly average compared to most girls she hangs out with. She's pretty, but she's not drop-dead gorgeous. On that morning after accidentally being exposed to 7 loops of DMSI 3.1-A, she looked scary good, and it literally just shocked me. Imagine if she had listened to DMSI 3.1-A for 3-6 months--or any girl for that matter--that shit is too powerful to even fathom.
Like snowfall, you cry a silent storm
Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . . -- Agalloch, The Mantle
10-01-2017, 09:29 AM
(09-30-2017, 11:54 PM)Purple Jade Wrote: Don’t really know what happened. Got ditched without any reason for the second date. There was constant communication during the week, and he would even explain and apologised if he was radio silent for longer than a few hours due to work commitments without me asking anything. There were still texts to indicate the date would be carrying on this morning, then he has been radio silent for the past 8 hours which has passed the planned pickup time. oh well, it’s out of his character, but I guess it’s easier just to disappear. Here's a male perspective on this. It could be fear. From my own experience, after the first date, meeting a woman somehow becomes more and more emotionally difficult, especially if touchy-feely stuff hasn't happened much yet. This goes for the first date even, but it's more pronounced after, for some reason. After setting up the date logistics and confirming that it's happening, I get thoughts like "I hope something happens, and this whole thing gets cancelled." One time, I even pretended to be sick and tried to cancel a date, but she was more persistent that me and she brought soup to my place We had even slept together at that point... but fear is just insane sometimes... So, it could have been a case of that. Out of fear, he just bailed. It could also have been something completely different, of course.
INFJ
10-01-2017, 09:21 PM
(10-01-2017, 09:29 AM)Blink Wrote:Thank you.(09-30-2017, 11:54 PM)Purple Jade Wrote: Don’t really know what happened. Got ditched without any reason for the second date. There was constant communication during the week, and he would even explain and apologised if he was radio silent for longer than a few hours due to work commitments without me asking anything. There were still texts to indicate the date would be carrying on this morning, then he has been radio silent for the past 8 hours which has passed the planned pickup time. oh well, it’s out of his character, but I guess it’s easier just to disappear. Yep, he decided to contact me today and told me he was “tired and sick”. I said to him that i know the physical attraction was there but if he wasn’t really into me, it’s ok. We can both move on and I don’t like playing games. He then went silent again. I was actually quite surprised that I was firm and direct, which is not like the old me - my old self would always give second chances or would think things would eventually work towards my favour if I let it continue. I’d say this is DMSI changing me and I like the firm and IDGAF attitude.
10-02-2017, 01:15 AM
Oh dear, he contacted me again saying he wanted to meet up, then 15 minutes later said No. I’m not sure what he was thinking of or what his fear is, but I know he might really have some issues to deal with. I’m a lot older than him and it’s not like there is anything for him to gain playing this sort of game, but being so indecisive sure is painful. I almost feel sorry for him.
10-02-2017, 02:01 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-02-2017, 02:05 AM by Purple Jade.)
I honestly don’t give a **** about this guy anymore. I’m so over this. I don’t know if his irrational behaviour is due to my sniper or not as I do find him very attractive, but that’s so over the top.
I have been listening 7 loops hybrid TS every night and feel that I’m getting IT. I know I’m attractive, and I know if this one doesn’t work out, it means there are better guys for me. I used to think if I don’t try harder to please the current guy, I would miss the boat; now I think there are plenty of fish in the sea, and I have much better boats out there waiting for me to board! I really like the way I think now.
10-02-2017, 03:58 AM
Sounds like everything is going well.
Dmsi really boosts your self respect, and you're right... You DONT need this random guy
10-02-2017, 05:38 PM
Thinking of times I've acted this way around a woman, it's either because I've been dealing with health issues (sick or whatever) or someone else I found was a better match for me came along. Either way a good philosophy in life is if someone's on the fence about you in whatever way to cut them off as it does you no good to spend valuable minutes on nonsense.
10-03-2017, 03:54 AM
(10-02-2017, 05:38 PM)stratos Wrote: Thinking of times I've acted this way around a woman, it's either because I've been dealing with health issues (sick or whatever) or someone else I found was a better match for me came along. Either way a good philosophy in life is if someone's on the fence about you in whatever way to cut them off as it does you no good to spend valuable minutes on nonsense. Thanks for the advice. I have been quite clear that I wasn’t interested in a serious relationship and he told me the same, hence I didn’t expect any drama. The whole idea of fwb is no dramas, everything should be clean cut, either yes or no. So on Saturday he played the first drama, he played another one on Sunday, the third one on Monday. He did say he was sick, and from what I know about him, not likely to have another person in the picture right now. If there is someone or he’s sick, he can easily call it off. The most crazy thing is that he started another conversation today with a very sincere apology, no execuses, just straight to the point admitting he was wrong and asked for my forgiveness. All I can say is DMSI - I have no other explanation.
10-03-2017, 02:53 PM
I had a date recently from DMSI bloom (although I am looking for a serious relationship) that I felt went really well. I exchanged texts with the girl throughout the week, as we both expressed interest in seeing each other. As soon as I tried to actually make any plans, the girl went radio silent. I don't know if this is the "ghosting" that some people discuss while on DMSI, but in general I would say don't fret too much over a single lost potential connection. There will be plenty more, and of higher quality, the longer you run the program. Just trust in the program's power and its ability to change you, inside and out--it takes a while for some, even 100+ days, and you really do have to go out of your shell and do quite a bit at times to take advantage of the program, but it seems like everyone who's gotten results from this sub has gotten great results with patience, perseverence, dedication, and a hell of a lot of motivation.
Like snowfall, you cry a silent storm
Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . . -- Agalloch, The Mantle
10-04-2017, 12:47 AM
Nothing much happened today. At some point, A thought came to my mind - can’t be bothered with men anymore. Too hard. I’d better be on my own.
10-04-2017, 10:46 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-04-2017, 11:09 AM by Purple Jade.)
I AM SO DARN HORNY. I’m about to explode. Very frustrating - lots of IOIs, no execution.
Very tempted to call drama boy. And I know I won’t. ******* just counted my days of listening, today is Day 20. Looks like I’ve got more healing to do than I expected. Soldier on PJ! |
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