DMSI 5.1 (with DRS) bonanza

[Have at ye]

Singing practice went very well today. I'll be keeping up my vocal care regimen until Sunday, though. I also sent out several applications to singing gigs in Germany. DMSI/FRM is hard at work, helping me speak my mind - communicating what I have to say - in ways that are, well, to be precise - strictly legal/won't come to bite me in the butt later, but still getting the job done (both through speech/action, as well as through energetic discharge - it's why I *need* to express this shite, otherwise the energy becomes stagnant and weighs me down, messing up my life in the process. It's why I want to EHPRA v7 ASAP).

Did not notice much in the way of attention from the ladies today, but I'm noticing that the skin of my hands, and my Item, is becoming more supple somehow. IDK why, but that's what I noticed today.

[Have at ye]

I'm getting moments when the program is focused on FRM/working through blockages, and moments when it's focused on execution (which I can tell by quite obvious energetic projection and a skyrocketing mood + self-confidence).

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day, and then Friday I'm pretty much free to do as I please, and then Saturday and Sunday *it's SHOWTIME*.

Let's have a song to celebrate. Metallica - HIT THE LIGHTS!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1bW2DMOeDEM

\m/

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So musical rehearsal went very well today, at least the cry-babies I'm working with 1) behaved themselves at least, 2) have finally learned their parts, lewl. I credit the DRS and the gentle ministrations of the leaders (director and conductors). So come Saturday we HIT THE LIGHTS! Gonna have to ask the lovely director lady some things first, but I won't be calling her up again, I'll ask on the day (because the dude with whom I share the vocal parts still thinks he knows better. Mooo-ran.)

Hadn't noticed much in the way of lady attention, though, but maybe I just got so used to various IOIs I don't even notice them anymore. Still, one thing of note: when I was running X4A, my horniness increased a lot and it was very much like "I'd bang anything right now", on DMSI it's more like the horniness is way more selective and mostly seems to come up when I see women whom I find *very* attractive (so probably matching the sniper criteria). We'll see. Hopefully this is not a side-effect of the medication I'm on, which can cause increased prolactin production (had that on earlier medication and it ended up with me totes impotent, anorgasmic and with an extremely low libido, so I'd rather not have a rerun of that. Doctor said it's not having appeared within 1 month of taking the meds is a good prognosis, but in the end we'll only know after 3 full months of being on it, oyyy. If so, I'll be quitting the medication, lewl. I do have another one for the very same thing stashed in yuge quantities should push come to shove, one that has different side-effects, the above not being one of them).

Met with my therapist today, she actually seemed pissed off at the production team for even calling me up after what happened. Can't blame her. She's made herself available over the weekend in case of anything critical happening - which is duly appreciated.

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Feeling really good today, and feeling really good about my performances this weekend, all things considered. FRM appears to be working its magic and my self-confidence is becoming more grounded/more stable.

Tomorrow after the show I will also most probably be attending the birthday party of some bros, where one or more women I'd find interesting could be in attendance, so we'll see how they react to DMSI v. 5.1

But then again, I literally *can't wait* for Monday to switch to EHPRA v7 for at least one full run-through and heal up proper. I'll do at least one 2-month run-through, come hell or high water, and then depending on my professional circumstances I'll either do another one (should I feel the need for one) or get right back on DMSI v. 5.1.

[Have at ye]

These past two hours FRM in DMSI/DMSI itself hit on something heavy and I'm not feeling as optimistic as I had. Maybe this will pass in the morning and I'll make it through the next two days relatively unscathed. Also felt like there was either resistance or an attack against the DRS, which passed.

Fingers crossed! I'm doing this for myself and the audience, not for these maroons!

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It went relatively well.

Tomorrow it'll go better.

Also once again I fell in love with the director lady. Based on seeing her twice for tiny periods of time. Haha, we'll see. I got what I wanted fron her fron this project anyway (so her social media and her private phone number, lewl).

So, tomorrow to go and then it's EHPRA time.