DMSI 5.1 (with DRS) bonanza

[Have at ye]

One thing strikes me about this version of DMSI compared to earlier ones: women appear to be finding my presence comforting yet sexually arousing, but altogether they appear to be *enjoying* the effect DMSI has on them. On earlier versions they seemed to find it stressful.

More once I'm outta here.

[Have at ye]

Three more days and I'm home free.

I hit some resistance and was tempted to switch to EPHRA, but I'm gonna guve this ver. of DMSI a proper go first. Three months at least starting from when I'm out (I'll count this month as a warmup due to having to use earbuds). I'll describe some wonky sensations I've been getting once I'm home.

I got a good night's sleep and I feel better now.

[ncbeareatingman]

Three more days and I'm home free.

I hit some resistance and was tempted to switch to EPHRA, but I'm gonna guve this ver. of DMSI a proper go first. Three months at least starting from when I'm out (I'll count this month as a warmup due to having to use earbuds). I'll describe some wonky sensations I've been getting once I'm home.

I got a good night's sleep and I feel better now.

Good Man. Strong Soul !! Hugs & Light!! More power to Ya!!

[Have at ye]

Hmm, I know this potentially *could* be resistance, but I'm switching for a full run of EPHRA once I'm outta here to prevent further episodes/situations like the one I just went through from occurring again (I also want to be healthy without having to resort to meds, they tend to have serious side-effects).

[Have at ye]

Ooookay, Shannon's gonna be all over my case, but I'm switching back to DMSI 5.1 until the end of the month, and *then* I'll finally get to do a proper run of E7.

Why? Because it turns out the production team really wants me back in action for the two performances this month. And they're next week.

So I need the hutzpah granted by DMSI *and* the integrated DRS.

Because if I pull this off, my singing career is all but guaranteed. Could be my make-or-break moment.

Alright, let's do this.

[Have at ye]

Yes, this is it, DMSI is the right choice. It gives me moxy and tremendous confidence, as well as removing barriers to speaking my mind (I credit FRM for this), building on the basis of months spent on OSC. And the integrated DRS is a must.

I'm also getting some interesting attention from the ladies, but I'm so focused on the upcoming performances (*and* a job interview) it's more like a neat side-effect for me right now.

All I need more is quality sleep and I think we're Golden. Time to embody a Golden God of Sex and Song, that's what they're paying me for, haha.

[Have at ye]

FRM is working wonders whenever I start experiencing trepidation about what I'm about to pull-off next week. It's really fast-acting. And DRS is doing it's job quite nicely as well - I've finally had some rest days from being constantly bombarded by other people's barrage of negativity thrown my way.

I do get moments of tremendous sexual energy from within and it's very welcome as I can not just use it for the purposes of developing MSI and sexy-fun-times, but also towards other pursuits in which I am currently engaged.

I can feel energy being projected at times very intensely.

I also found a teeth-whitening toothpaste that works really well for me apparently (it's a local brand called "Tołpa", in its 'smokers and coffee-lovers' version). Very neat and another move towards MSI!

[Have at ye]

You know, in order not to go bonkers again - and to deal with what the sub is working through, especially the FRM - I need to put stuff into words, like f. in. writing in this here journal.

What helps me as well is talking to my lovely lady-analyst, and that's a great help, but these past two months, due to her being on vacation and then my work stuff, and my stint at the psych ward, we only had the opportunity to meet twice, and there's a lot going on.

(Incidentally, despite the analyst-analysand relation we have, when I ran X4A and now DMSI, I am observing her reactions, and whenever she gives me a "I'd f**** you so hard" look it really brightens my mood, haha. And the sentiment is quite obviously reciprocated. Also goes to show how much self-control high-quality, intelligent women usually possess; she's fully capable of experiencing feelings like that whilst *still doing a damn good job* as a therapist).

Heck, even simply talking out loud in my apartment helps. Even simply *humming* what I'd have to say under my breath whilst I'm out in public helps (I have a great excuse should someone overhear and ask - "I'm like, totes a pro singer and it's simply a thing I'm doing to keep my voice in shape", lewl) to deal with life-stuff *and* the sub.

[GreekGod22]

What do you recommend between DMSI 5.0 and 5.1. I want to start soon on it, but not sure which version to choose.

[Have at ye]

I haven't actually even tried 5.0, so I can't tell you that. What I *do* know is that v. 5.1 with DRS feels really good, and that the embedded shield really makes it fly for me - both as a timesaver and for the additional synergy - not just DMSI-wise, but in general.

[Have at ye]

Made some audition recordings with pianist-bro today, as well as talking shop, and it was pretty good, especially given that I had a month-long break from singing and only been back to regular practice since Friday. Also worked over the part I'll be doing next weekend, it made me feel confident I've got this. I asked for consultations with the lovely director lady (who - incidentally - also ended up in the hospital during the production and I'm kinda bummed out I did not manage to prevent this from happening as I could easily tell she was in a bad way. But, ultimately, it wasn't my fault - I also did all I could given the circumstances and my station within the production, so there's that.) [EDIT: And consultations with the conductor/his assistant. Not exactly lovely ladies, haha, but they're pros]

On OSC I felt like I was a little bit more confident of my technique, whilst on DMSI the self-confidence is a little bit different - I am not afraid to *express* and I have faith in my authenticity. But technique-wise the recording was also pretty good, like I have a very "basso profondo" tone going on. Gotta warm up some more to make hitting high, veiled notes properly easier.

I'll be testing out the potential for remote sniping using this version of DMSI this week on this one particular lady I'd love to make love to, haha (one of the most beautiful women I had ever met. Also, I feel like she owes me. More than one. Long story!)

But after the performances I *really* want to do a proper run of EHPRA v7. I'll be switching right over because I've had a change of plans (I had a retreat with lovely ladies planned - a proper opportunity to test DMSI - but it's been cancelled).

[Have at ye]

Currently, I'm perceiving less of the great DMSI effects consciously, but what I'm getting through dreams and wonky sensations is that the FRM is working through a fear-based blockage related to sexual prowess most probably, which is directly linked to feelings of heartbreak for me (the perineum-heart line). It's already worked through a self-confidence blockage which was on the right foot-left side of the chest line.

Or something like that. Wonky sensations are a good indicator that *something* is going on, but they're somewhat difficult to interpret.

UPDATE: This particular wonky sensation just went away. It's not impossible it won't make a comeback, but right now something has popped open and now I have stuff to verbalize, lewl. Anyroad, good stuff! Now it's working on something that gives me wonky sensations to the right of my stomach.

[Have at ye]

Some sort of blockage, as well as probably an energetic attack, got dealt with and now I'm projecting warm energy like crazy. Wondering how much of it, if any, is devoted to my remote sniping exercise.

[Have at ye]

I had a job interview today, lewl, at the very institution where I'll be performing this weekend, haha! It was a trolling attempt on my part, but I ended up being interviewed for a position anyway, and now I've received a test-task to perform by Monday, so the test-task I shall perform!

I was a bit worried yesterday because I went too hard in my singing practice after a month-long break and my passagio and high notes have become a bit raspy and off-key due to too much strain on the cords. But I've got some decent over-the-counter medication for this, and will be getting as much sleep as I need in order to recover, hopefully by Thursday (rehearsal).

Haven't noticed all that much on the sexual attention front, but maybe that's because I'm so busy with other things I'm not even looking too much right now. DMSI appears to be working through something serious using the FRM. I get moments of total elation interspersed with moments of kinda-sorta depression right now.

I do look and feel like a really fine piece of man, especially given my new wardrobe. Whenever I run DMSI, I look in the mirror and perceive myself as at least a 9-10 type-of-guy, and am beginning to act accordingly (without DMSI I'd say I'm currently in the 7-8 range, maybe higher if a chick is into the bald, athletic type).