02-09-2020, 06:13 PM
Hi guys,
thank you for your replies!
@Benjamin Wow, I didn't know that there are so many spammers. Actually it didn't take that long, I just felt like I waited forever, because my first attempt to register was never answered. I checked my mail and spam folder every day, but I never logged in and after a while I assumed that it must have been rejected and tried it again with the other address. The rejected one has the ending .net, and it happens a lot that it is not accepted on message boards.
Yes, using the one I ordered from would have been the easiest, but it contains my full name, and I didn't want to make it visible for everyone.
@Frosted Didn't you ask him why he thought of lyme disease? In my country it's difficult, because officially the disease doesn't exist. Instead I was diagnosed with carpal tunnel, loge de guyon, swollen knee and tailor's bunion from overuse (after lying in bed and doing nothing for years), thyroid problems, and covered up domestic violence (because I developed large bruises on my whole body out of the blue). Not to forget an endless number of burn-out and depression diagnoses – because my medical records mention anorexia nervosa at age of 13, for a clueless doctor an unequivocal proof that all my current health complaints must be psychosomatic as well.
@Shannon Thank you very much for the information. I will definitely look for the Trifecta, because in case the herbal antibiotics won't help I don't have many options left. I might consider buying a rife machine or spooky 2 or whatever it is called at the moment, but it is expensive and not very pleasant almost always causing Herxheimer reactions.
Maybe I should buy Maximum Immune Response anyway, because since I started the antibiotics I'm extremely prone to diseases. A metro trip, a theater visit, a shopping spree – it's almost sure that two days later I will be infected with something.
As far as DMSI is concerned, I feel like there is something being sorted out under the surface at the moment. I'm still very motivated and active, but my mood has changed. When I start thinking I'm getting sad, realising how lonely I am, how stuck in my current living situation, and how boring my everyday life feels at the moment.
For the coming weeks I will have to stay near my mom, because she's in the process of cataract surgery (both eyes), and her dementia makes it impossible to prepare the different kinds of eyedrops every 3-4 hours for herself. Such frequent contact is quite exhausting for me, not preparing the eyedrops of course, but answering the same questions fifty times a day.
I went out a few times, met a friend at a bar and another one at a restaurant, but so far I don't get any attention from the people around. At least not in real life. Online I definitely see a change. In a game I regularly play I'm suddenly getting tons of mails and messages from people who want to trade items. This has maybe happened a dozen times during the last five years, usually I had to initiate the trades myself, looking through others' inventories for hours and checking their spares. All these recent offers were definitely surprising me.
With online friends, especially guys, it's the same: if I ask a quick question just to keep in touch, they now make every effort, reply with a long text and ask questions back, instead of being short and half-hearted.
Now I only hope that this behaviour will penetrate into my real life as well, because I'm a person who prefers making new friends face to face, instead of going through the cumbersome process of online contact – searching profiles, writing a hello, sending pics, receiving pics, writing again and again, telling all the basic facts, finally talking on the phone or on skype, and after weeks of back and fourth and many hours invested you finally meet for the first time, often after a two hour drive, because the other person lives far away.
Of course the outcome may be successful, but the long lead time makes the whole thing just unattractive for me – so I'm really hoping to get attention from the people nearby anytime soon.
My dreams are still missing, or at least I don't remember any. The whole night is dark, something completely new for me. Maybe once a week I vaguely recall a short sequence (5-10 seconds), but I can't say for sure whether it was a dream or something I thought of before I fell asleep.
One part of me misses my exciting pre-DMSI dream adventures, always lasting for a long time and sometimes turning into lucid dreams or OBEs. But another part thinks that this dream-free state may serve as an incentive to look for distraction in real life instead of staying passive and alone, something I have done for too long already.
thank you for your replies!
@Benjamin Wow, I didn't know that there are so many spammers. Actually it didn't take that long, I just felt like I waited forever, because my first attempt to register was never answered. I checked my mail and spam folder every day, but I never logged in and after a while I assumed that it must have been rejected and tried it again with the other address. The rejected one has the ending .net, and it happens a lot that it is not accepted on message boards.
Yes, using the one I ordered from would have been the easiest, but it contains my full name, and I didn't want to make it visible for everyone.
@Frosted Didn't you ask him why he thought of lyme disease? In my country it's difficult, because officially the disease doesn't exist. Instead I was diagnosed with carpal tunnel, loge de guyon, swollen knee and tailor's bunion from overuse (after lying in bed and doing nothing for years), thyroid problems, and covered up domestic violence (because I developed large bruises on my whole body out of the blue). Not to forget an endless number of burn-out and depression diagnoses – because my medical records mention anorexia nervosa at age of 13, for a clueless doctor an unequivocal proof that all my current health complaints must be psychosomatic as well.
@Shannon Thank you very much for the information. I will definitely look for the Trifecta, because in case the herbal antibiotics won't help I don't have many options left. I might consider buying a rife machine or spooky 2 or whatever it is called at the moment, but it is expensive and not very pleasant almost always causing Herxheimer reactions.
Maybe I should buy Maximum Immune Response anyway, because since I started the antibiotics I'm extremely prone to diseases. A metro trip, a theater visit, a shopping spree – it's almost sure that two days later I will be infected with something.
As far as DMSI is concerned, I feel like there is something being sorted out under the surface at the moment. I'm still very motivated and active, but my mood has changed. When I start thinking I'm getting sad, realising how lonely I am, how stuck in my current living situation, and how boring my everyday life feels at the moment.
For the coming weeks I will have to stay near my mom, because she's in the process of cataract surgery (both eyes), and her dementia makes it impossible to prepare the different kinds of eyedrops every 3-4 hours for herself. Such frequent contact is quite exhausting for me, not preparing the eyedrops of course, but answering the same questions fifty times a day.
I went out a few times, met a friend at a bar and another one at a restaurant, but so far I don't get any attention from the people around. At least not in real life. Online I definitely see a change. In a game I regularly play I'm suddenly getting tons of mails and messages from people who want to trade items. This has maybe happened a dozen times during the last five years, usually I had to initiate the trades myself, looking through others' inventories for hours and checking their spares. All these recent offers were definitely surprising me.
With online friends, especially guys, it's the same: if I ask a quick question just to keep in touch, they now make every effort, reply with a long text and ask questions back, instead of being short and half-hearted.
Now I only hope that this behaviour will penetrate into my real life as well, because I'm a person who prefers making new friends face to face, instead of going through the cumbersome process of online contact – searching profiles, writing a hello, sending pics, receiving pics, writing again and again, telling all the basic facts, finally talking on the phone or on skype, and after weeks of back and fourth and many hours invested you finally meet for the first time, often after a two hour drive, because the other person lives far away.
Of course the outcome may be successful, but the long lead time makes the whole thing just unattractive for me – so I'm really hoping to get attention from the people nearby anytime soon.
My dreams are still missing, or at least I don't remember any. The whole night is dark, something completely new for me. Maybe once a week I vaguely recall a short sequence (5-10 seconds), but I can't say for sure whether it was a dream or something I thought of before I fell asleep.
One part of me misses my exciting pre-DMSI dream adventures, always lasting for a long time and sometimes turning into lucid dreams or OBEs. But another part thinks that this dream-free state may serve as an incentive to look for distraction in real life instead of staying passive and alone, something I have done for too long already.
