DMSI 3.2 journal (A Smuggler's tale)

[Benjamin]

A large part of my anxiety appears to come from the nightclub job as I look at every single person in the street as if they are going to hurt me, I can't walk past a single person without visualising how i'm going to be able to counter if they attack me.

Damn.. I understand this well. Do you do security?

I believe that contributed to some of my issues too. When I was doing it regularly, all the fights that I got into, i'd walk down the street hyperaware and paranoid. And i'd see people I threw out and combined with some things that happened I started to isolate myself.

I feel way more relaxed out of that job now.

Hope you can start to deal with it.