DMSI 3.2 Random Musings and Journalings

[Have at ye]

Had the craziest day today, kinda like when I was having "adventures in TID" three months back (on which I reported back in my 3.1 journal, I believe). Ran into tons of women I find attractive, they all would start the interaction, etc., etc., including the girl mentioned two posts above, which simply made my day (and also helped me further "put some heart" behind the entire deal, and notice a lot of internal progress. Normally, back in the day, I'd get nervous around a woman like that - I'd be able to handle it, usually, but still. Now I'm not. Everything was simply *clicking*). Got some decent singing in while I was at it, too.

Ahh, I really like this program. And you're saying it's only going to get more powerful going forward? Chapeau bas, monsieur Shannon, if you're reading this! I realize your work is excruciating and frustrating at times, but hell, it is doing wonders at this level of technological advancement already, so imagine how effective it is going to be further on!

[Have at ye]

I did experience a little bit of fear-based feedback yesterday and today, pretty much of the "this is too good to be true" and "I really don't want to f**k this up" kind, with some fears based on previous experiences, but I did persevere and did what I believed I had to do today (actually - not what I had to do, but what I *really wanted* to do - with absolutely no shits given) after fretting about it extensively. But I feel I pulled through. And I'm kinda happy about this. Had a pretty good day despite any misgivings thanks to that!

I am also noticing that I've become extremely direct, and maybe sometimes I'd even say blunt (though never vulgar), when people try to extract information from me regarding various females and my intentions towards them or opinions on them. It's pretty much like: "That's what I'm going to do/that's what I think of her. Deal with it."

By the by, I did have this urge three nights ago to use my black obsidian wand to expedite removal of the baggage that is getting worked on through DMSI, and I did it, and it felt great. I'm not an expert on crystals, but I believe that black obsidian should be really, really good for what requires dissipation here, and, as it happens, I did purchase a very nice black obsidian wand back when I was using ver. 3.1. I basically touch the wand's tip to the spots in my body where I experienced those "heavy feelings" in response to DMSI on that day, plus the areas that I believe, based in self-reflection, could use some work (like, f. in., the coccyx and the spine in general). After I do this (I've done this twice), the physical sensations which I believe are related to executing DMSI become more pronounced, and I feel really good and energized.

[Have at ye]

Aaaand another major thing has cleared through, I think.

I've admitted to myself, and have come to realize, that all the wild partying, all the crazy shit I've ever done, all that "bad boy" bullshit I've put myself through, all the "rock'n'roll" stupidity I've ever performed... it's never been what I've actually wanted or needed. Never.

Cried like a baby. Still kinda mushy.

EDIT

Here's kinda what I'm feeling right now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BR8_n-B8qu0

(It's a Schubert song)

[Have at ye]

Tomorrow's break day. And I'm actually welcoming it - I've noticed that I've been delaying listening to my loops today for some reason. It's probably related to something I noticed several days after raising the number of loops to 2 - I got a "are you seriously expecting me to do ALL OF THIS" vibe from myself (in the liver area, obviously) in response to my affirming my intention to "execute all of the script", hahaha. Obviously, I responded with, "well, I know, right? I really do, though, so..."

My subconscious is kinda lazy, but I do know for a fact that once it gets going, it's pretty much unstoppable. [edited as per rule 4, i've mentioned it several times -Ben]

I kinda forgot to report about this because a lot of other stuff was happening at the time internally, too.

[Have at ye]

Oh, BTW., I'm proceeding with ver. B, 2 loops, for the next two weeks, too. No switcharoo. The decision was so organic I kinda even sorta forgot I was planning to do the switcharoo in the first place, but I re-read some of my own previous posts just now.

[Have at ye]

Huh.

Just came to a sudden realization. Based on me wondering why exactly am I listening to a particular song this much, given this has been a decent indicator of whatever the hell's going on in my subC.

I am actually feeling *pursued*. By women. Most of them top alpha females, or at the very least pretty high in the rankings. And, having done some analysis of what has been going on, it appears to be *true*.

And, given how women of that ilk tend to go about pursuit, well... lemme tell you, brace yourselves.

My current estimate? They're at the end of their respective ropes in most cases. Soon, they'll be out of options apart from "take me now and forever", should they so please, lol.

[Have at ye]

Oh, HaveAtYe, HaveAtYe, ye never learn, do ye? Lol.

Basically, I've totally stepped into a smiling, sweet, sunshine and rainbows aristocrat. Not just an aristocratic type - an actual aristocrat. Whoopsie. And apparently I've stepped neck-deep, as far as I know myself.

Applied some chevalier charm, we went on a date and hit it off like crazy (and I could see DMSI at work - also was able to, umm, *smell* the fact that she is physically turned on at one point, lol), albeit the thing with 'em aristocratic women is that they are extremely difficult to read, especially shit-test wise (pretty much anything can be a shit-test, and they are *not* going to be obvious). Some things to be kept in mind, as a reminder to myself: do not become intimidated by her status (or at least try not to show it should this happen), maintain composure at all times (do not allow yourself to become unhinged by pretty much anything), maintain a healthy measure of pride in yourself - they respond to that.

There are moments when I am at a loss how to proceed. Then again, she is responding to my execution of DMSI (as, technically speaking, she approached me on more than one occasion prior to me falling for her crazily effective natural seduction methods). So I guess the best way forward is to keep executing and hope for the best.

DMSI don't fail me now, lol.

Going on tour again next week, Monday to Friday, so packing my DMSI to go and gonna have some time to maybe let my subC resolve this, as my conscious awareness is going to be occupied with work.

[Have at ye]

Some further heavy duty healing occurred today. And it went *deep*. I had to go home and lie down to go into a somewhat sleeping state for a while for it to process. No wonder I was feeling like crap these past two days. I'm feeling a bit worn out now, but in the end this should bear fruit.

Let's keep cracking.

[Have at ye]

Currently two days of my tour left. It's kinda fun, but I have a very sweet responder here with me and some dude who won't get off her ass, lol. Guy's totally trying to cock-block, so to speak - he's pretty much doing his damnedest to keep the two of us from interacting one on one; also very eager to show he's the alphaest here, lol (while cockblocking - nice one, guy!). I've known this guy for some time now - he was not acting like this prior to this girl joining our merry band; I'm very disappointed in him. Then again, going with the same responder on another tour in two weeks' time without the dude in question, so we'll see.

The girl in question did manage to set up and strike up several conversations with me making sure there's no one around (clever girl!), and intimated several things, including: she's not looking for a serious relationship right now, she's tired of her orbiters, and also that she's a virgin. Sweet girl, too.

Gonna finish up two weeks' worth of ver. B/2 loops and then I'll consider my options. I was thinking maybe going back to ver. A, but then again, I just might start incrementally increasing the number of loops of ver. B.

[Oversoul]

Damn, we really need a anti-sniper for cock-blockers. This kinda stuff has happened to me too with guys trying to not let girls be around me or trying to sabotage me in some way. Pathetic really.

But nice one bro, good to see you executing

[SargeMaximus]

Damn, we really need a anti-sniper for cock-blockers. This kinda stuff has happened to me too with guys trying to not let girls be around me or trying to sabotage me in some way. Pathetic really.

But nice one bro, good to see you executing

I’ve been getting that in sales. If a woman and I are talking and she tells her kid to go play somewhere, the kid ignores and watches me like a hawk. Mostly sons protective of their mothers.

[Have at ye]

Yup, it's sure as hell annoying, especially when guys who perceive you as competition start resorting to slander/libel, and it'd be very, very nice if a "COCKBLOCK-B-GONE" module makes it into ver. 3.3.

As far as I'm aware, though, females can tell when a guy sees you as competition, or, given enough time, do notice that something's amiss or that they are being lied to based on an "you should totally bang me, not him" agenda. And high-value females usually know what it feels like to be slandered by competitors. (Interestingly enough, I have talked about this very subject with both of the girls mentioned in my posts lately).

So, ultimately, all their efforts are only going to make these guys lesser in the eyes of the women.

[SargeMaximus]

Yup, it's sure as hell annoying, especially when guys who perceive you as competition start resorting to slander/libel, and it'd be very, very nice if a "COCKBLOCK-B-GONE" module makes it into ver. 3.3.

As far as I'm aware, though, females can tell when a guy sees you as competition, or, given enough time, do notice that something's amiss or that they are being lied to based on an "you should totally bang me, not him" agenda. And high-value females usually know what it feels like to be slandered by competitors. (Interestingly enough, I have talked about this very subject with both of the girls mentioned in my posts lately).

So, ultimately, all their efforts are only going to make these guys lesser in the eyes of the women.

Well that’s good to know. I totally agree about adding c*ckblock-b-gone tho.

[Have at ye]

Case in point - yesterday evening the guy in question made an ass out of himself by trying to be the manliest man that ever manned (and almost fell for a very cheap Internet con in the process, even though both the sweet responder and I told him multiple times that he's being conned), and then tried to lay the blame on us, lol. Also, the girl probably gave the guy a stern talking to that evening because he was relatively timid and not-as-cockblocky the morning after.

Anyroad, hilarity ensued this morning as the girl, in full view and hearing of everyone (our touring bus is kinda small) told me that "she's been trying to get my attention since last November", to which I, truthfully and honestly responded, "well, you haven't been trying hard enough", and then - I forgot the exact exchange - told her that "I'm going to teach you everything a young lady needs to know". The entire conversation, and its exact implications, probably went over the heads of the assorted entourage, apart from the driver who's a chill older guy with chill older guy wisdom (and he was like "the heck did I just hear" without saying a word ).

Then we had some fun making fun of her "przydupasy" (Polish word for "orbiter" which I love, because it literally carries the implication of "a person who sticks close to your ass" or "a person you keep nearby your ass"). Kinda like: Girl: "Bah, these guys keep telling me they're there for me and then they find girlfriends and stop giving a shit", Me: "And they were such good 'przydupasy'!", Girl: "I know, right?!", etc., or: Girl: "I've been invited to a wedding, I need to choose one of my 'przydupas' to pay the train fare", lol.

This girl's 21, mind you, and just as sweet as sunshine, lol. Ahhh, women, wonderful creatures.

Did I already say I like this program? I really like this program.