05-11-2018, 05:56 PM
(This post was last modified: 05-11-2018, 05:57 PM by Have at ye.)
I did experience a little bit of fear-based feedback yesterday and today, pretty much of the "this is too good to be true" and "I really don't want to f**k this up" kind, with some fears based on previous experiences, but I did persevere and did what I believed I had to do today (actually - not what I had to do, but what I *really wanted* to do - with absolutely no shits given) after fretting about it extensively. But I feel I pulled through. And I'm kinda happy about this. Had a pretty good day despite any misgivings thanks to that!
I am also noticing that I've become extremely direct, and maybe sometimes I'd even say blunt (though never vulgar), when people try to extract information from me regarding various females and my intentions towards them or opinions on them. It's pretty much like: "That's what I'm going to do/that's what I think of her. Deal with it."
By the by, I did have this urge three nights ago to use my black obsidian wand to expedite removal of the baggage that is getting worked on through DMSI, and I did it, and it felt great. I'm not an expert on crystals, but I believe that black obsidian should be really, really good for what requires dissipation here, and, as it happens, I did purchase a very nice black obsidian wand back when I was using ver. 3.1. I basically touch the wand's tip to the spots in my body where I experienced those "heavy feelings" in response to DMSI on that day, plus the areas that I believe, based in self-reflection, could use some work (like, f. in., the coccyx and the spine in general). After I do this (I've done this twice), the physical sensations which I believe are related to executing DMSI become more pronounced, and I feel really good and energized.
I am also noticing that I've become extremely direct, and maybe sometimes I'd even say blunt (though never vulgar), when people try to extract information from me regarding various females and my intentions towards them or opinions on them. It's pretty much like: "That's what I'm going to do/that's what I think of her. Deal with it."
By the by, I did have this urge three nights ago to use my black obsidian wand to expedite removal of the baggage that is getting worked on through DMSI, and I did it, and it felt great. I'm not an expert on crystals, but I believe that black obsidian should be really, really good for what requires dissipation here, and, as it happens, I did purchase a very nice black obsidian wand back when I was using ver. 3.1. I basically touch the wand's tip to the spots in my body where I experienced those "heavy feelings" in response to DMSI on that day, plus the areas that I believe, based in self-reflection, could use some work (like, f. in., the coccyx and the spine in general). After I do this (I've done this twice), the physical sensations which I believe are related to executing DMSI become more pronounced, and I feel really good and energized.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
