09-26-2016, 12:34 PM
(09-25-2016, 04:09 PM)Big Boss Wrote: I rmbr your sm3 journal was pretty inspiring. Hope this goes well also
hey thank you my friend, that's pretty cool to hear that you found it inspiring! quite a compliment, i must say.
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day 14?
"More will be revealed" is my current thoughts about this sub.
1) The sub might have some sort of build up effect. *
2) I think I caught autopilot in action, again.
1) I noticed that today, attention was increased. Especially increased while I was eating (white rice, with various curries. Typical south indian lunch) at a restaurant. I felt the inner Sexy Beast take over me. I started looking around the restaurant, catching eyes from approximately 20 feet away with a girl who was with her sister or friend. Eyes from other women too. So the ghosting veil has been lifted for 2 days so far.
2) I saw a meme that reminded me of my ex fiance, and I sent it to her, even though we hadn't talked to each other in a LONG time. She loved it, laughed, and said "good times..." I didn't respond to it tho. But the next day (today) she asks me how i'm doing, what's going on, etc. we exchange small banter. She says she just got married (arranged) in May. I ask curiously, if he is the same nationality as her (bangladeshi). She says no, he's a mix of 3 different nationalities. I say "you're lucky you got someone with the best of everything! Arabic and South asian!"
she says:
Awww [eternitys_child]
That's so sweet thank you
Marriage is no cakewalk though
lol it's very difficult
:/ too difficult at times
I say: BTW I don't expect marriage to be a cake walk, but didn't realize it was difficult. Did you meet the guy beforehand?
Her:
I met him once before but don't remember much of it. We met in march and got married in May.
It's difficult because we don't know each other at all
We are learning about each other every day, and it can get pretty tough.
I was never one for arranged marriages.
Me: Ya I know you aren't one for arranged marriage XD you are such a free spirit.
Her: I still am, or like to think I am!
I am working on that. feels like I lost myself
---there's way more to the conversation that i don't care to go into on this journal, but i extracted the important bits for the next point
The current version of me, after a year and a half of subs, knows this is basically a direct invitation to come give her what she's missing. (although you more experienced members are more than welcome to chime in on what you think, since i'm still a noob
)Why would I have been driven to message an ex of 6 years before, out of nowhere, when there hasn't been communication in at least a year? If it weren't for the interaction I had with her, I wouldn't have claimed autopilot was on. But it was because of the random urge to message her, plus the conversation that followed, which made me think autopilot is working. Now, if the sub would just guide me to women who aren't in committed relationships, that'd be great
*Over time, and through repeated exposures at the recommended daily 5 loops, the sub efficacy is gradually increased. Which is all fine and dandy. 14 days to start seeing external results? I'll take that. I'm used to approximately that speed from 5G. But the internal results came almost immediately.
Tomorrow I meet the tinder girl for a date at a punjabi restaurant. I will report back the results.
BTW I just wanted to mention, I saw 4k's post about sudden pains in his body, and thought I would mention mine too. I have this weird pain in my jaws (mostly left side). It started as a pressure in my left temple, but gradually became a pain in the bone. Weird. Not sure if it's even connected with DMSI. It'd be nice if the sub corrects my slight cross-bite, which is at basically the same location
