01-03-2017, 03:22 PM
The emotional shield is protecting me from the majority of the clearing, but I feel like the lenses through which I see the world is colored with gloom. Emotionally, I don't feel sadness. But I sense it hovering in and around me. It's like my soul just wants to let out some tears.
I hit a breakthrough a couple hours ago, which immediately initiated the energy activity around my heart. I did not like what I concluded; in fact, I very much want to fight tooth and nail against it being true, if it were true. But, if it turned out to be true, I should accept it as the way it is. Likewise, if it's all in my head, I should accept that the way it is as well. The words "just be" rings in my mind.
Interestingly enough, just writing that last sentence, and then internalizing what I wrote, kicked on the h drip. Interesting.
Just Be = acceptance of script?
Anyway, I am completely introverting today. I'm just going to get me some much needed rest. A seems to be taking a lot more physical resources out of me than B. I can't seem to refuel fast enough.
I hit a breakthrough a couple hours ago, which immediately initiated the energy activity around my heart. I did not like what I concluded; in fact, I very much want to fight tooth and nail against it being true, if it were true. But, if it turned out to be true, I should accept it as the way it is. Likewise, if it's all in my head, I should accept that the way it is as well. The words "just be" rings in my mind.
Interestingly enough, just writing that last sentence, and then internalizing what I wrote, kicked on the h drip. Interesting.
Just Be = acceptance of script?
Anyway, I am completely introverting today. I'm just going to get me some much needed rest. A seems to be taking a lot more physical resources out of me than B. I can't seem to refuel fast enough.
