12-18-2016, 08:36 AM
I had a dream relating to being friendzoned by L. Ugh it made me uncomfortable. V3 has the stops pulled on the healing as far as "at your own pace", right? It's both a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing that it's raging over anything in its path, wiping the belief slate clean, so that proper beliefs can sink in and old nonsense beliefs can go find the exit sign, because ain't nobody got time for dat. It's a curse that it's making me hyper aware of how I cockblock myself time and time again. I don't think I'm resisting. I think I'm just in a state of intense clearing. So the discomfort I feel is not depressive resistance today. It is more mourning of the old me. Bye bye yesterday's eternity. It was nice knowing you.
Self sabotage is being minced to shreds. I think I am close to the apex of difficulty of this run. Neediness is being destroyed. Now if I can only just do something about being so lazy.
Self sabotage is being minced to shreds. I think I am close to the apex of difficulty of this run. Neediness is being destroyed. Now if I can only just do something about being so lazy.
