MLS journals seem to become more and more but it is not surprising at all if you read the journals. However, here still DMSI.
Today as I went to the car there were two girls talking. I looked at one of them and then at the other. The moment I looked into her eyes I felt strong attraction, but not that much sexually charged, it was more lovely, but still strong. But I still looked away immediately. Then I asked myself why I did not look longer in her eyes or have smiled and it become the following dialogue:
"It's because of the fear"
"What kind of fear?"
"Fear to be rejected"
"But I don't feel like I fear rejection"
"Not the fear of being rejected as her lover, it is fear of being rejected as person, as human being, fear of being devalued"
After getting this response I was surprised and next moment I just thought "She cannot devalue me because whatever she thinks doesn't change anything about my value". So far it looks like my mindset is ok, but it is not (yet) what I feel emotion wise. But looks like DMSI is working on something regarding these fears.
Other than that I got nice responses and smiles from many people.
Edit: Still 2 loops (hybrid/TS)
Today as I went to the car there were two girls talking. I looked at one of them and then at the other. The moment I looked into her eyes I felt strong attraction, but not that much sexually charged, it was more lovely, but still strong. But I still looked away immediately. Then I asked myself why I did not look longer in her eyes or have smiled and it become the following dialogue:
"It's because of the fear"
"What kind of fear?"
"Fear to be rejected"
"But I don't feel like I fear rejection"
"Not the fear of being rejected as her lover, it is fear of being rejected as person, as human being, fear of being devalued"
After getting this response I was surprised and next moment I just thought "She cannot devalue me because whatever she thinks doesn't change anything about my value". So far it looks like my mindset is ok, but it is not (yet) what I feel emotion wise. But looks like DMSI is working on something regarding these fears.
Other than that I got nice responses and smiles from many people.
Edit: Still 2 loops (hybrid/TS)
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.