12-10-2016, 06:56 AM
Healing is taking place, which is my priority for this month at least.
Yesterday while I was listening to the sub, I was bored/upset/angry at the sound of the TS and wanted to get rid of my headphones. This feeling lasted for more than a loop. I knew some sh*t was being released I persisted until I returned to a neutral state of being.
I woke up this morning with the realisation that I have a possessive thought pattern about girls I am interested in. I don't see them as anything more than FBs, but I do get jealous at the thought of them settling with other guys. I don't know if this falls under oneitis as it's not just about one girl, but several of them.
Some journal entries mentioned pains in the knees. I did not experience pains, but I did feel discomfort in my knees. First, it was my left knee, then it moved to my right knee the next day. Both are fine now.
I don't understand how DMSI relates to this, but I've made a decision to reduce my interest in football(soccer). It's now clear to me I have an unhealthy passion for the game. I get ecstatic when my team wins, but feel the blues (no pun) for like three days straight each time they lose or even draw a game. Why should I put my emotional health in the legs of a bunch of guys earning 000's to 00,000s of pounds each week?! And I still have to pay to watch them? Sounds ridiculous when I look at it rationally. Easier said than done - it's football weekend and I will see if this is being powered by DMSI, or it's just me being a sore loser.
Yesterday while I was listening to the sub, I was bored/upset/angry at the sound of the TS and wanted to get rid of my headphones. This feeling lasted for more than a loop. I knew some sh*t was being released I persisted until I returned to a neutral state of being.
I woke up this morning with the realisation that I have a possessive thought pattern about girls I am interested in. I don't see them as anything more than FBs, but I do get jealous at the thought of them settling with other guys. I don't know if this falls under oneitis as it's not just about one girl, but several of them.
Some journal entries mentioned pains in the knees. I did not experience pains, but I did feel discomfort in my knees. First, it was my left knee, then it moved to my right knee the next day. Both are fine now.
I don't understand how DMSI relates to this, but I've made a decision to reduce my interest in football(soccer). It's now clear to me I have an unhealthy passion for the game. I get ecstatic when my team wins, but feel the blues (no pun) for like three days straight each time they lose or even draw a game. Why should I put my emotional health in the legs of a bunch of guys earning 000's to 00,000s of pounds each week?! And I still have to pay to watch them? Sounds ridiculous when I look at it rationally. Easier said than done - it's football weekend and I will see if this is being powered by DMSI, or it's just me being a sore loser.
Confront your problems. Walk away from BS. Seek wisdom to know the difference.
