DMSI 3.1 A - CHANGES

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[Note: Apologies if the report seems inconsistent. It was transferred from my private journal and I had to edit out some personal stuff]

I started listening to this on Friday, 2 Dec, at about 11am (Headphones, Hybrid TS, Flac). Initially, I felt nothing but five minutes in I had the urge to increase the volume. However, during the second loop, I had another urge to reduce the volume.

I tried my best not to think about what the sub was doing. My diligence was focused on just listening to the optimum number of loops at the right volume. This did not prevent me from noticing a good feeling flowing through my body. It was a subtle kind of drifting to sleep feeling. I woke up at 8 am that morning, and nothing was going to make me go back to bed. I continued the work I was doing until the end of the third loop. 

At the end of my first run, my energy returned and I had the urge to go out although I had planned to stay indoors. I went grocery shopping but did not notice any IOI's. To be fair I was not really looking for any. It did not help that most of the shop assistants were middle aged ladies.

I gave a busker some money on my way back home and I felt so happy after that.

The good feeling returned at about 8 pm, but I tried to stay awake to read some of the journal entries. I finally went to bed, and although I did not feel like it, I rubbed one off. The act gave me an AHA! moment. I felt the good-feeling energy diminish. I still felt good, but I could feel the difference in my body. Sexual Energy 101. 

Sleep was amazing! I slept like a baby, got up to take a leak at about 6 am and went back to another round of sleep and had a dream about one of my secondary school teachers. I was very good at mathematics in my junior years of secondary school, but I somehow lost interest in it when I moved to A' Level. I always felt like I was a disappointment to him as I was amongst his best students, and he was always proud to present me to his friends. In this dream, we were on good terms sharing jokes and having fun. I guess guilt and shame regarding this is being removed. I don't know how this helps me in getting tuna, but I will take it.

I also experienced sleep paralysis. Normally, it's frustrating when it happens but this time it felt cool. Maybe it's because this time it was a blend of sleep paralysis, lucid dreaming, and morphine drips.

I got up thinking it was after midday as I felt like I had been sleeping forever. It was still 08:15 am. 

Day 3

Nothing much to report. I did not leave the house yesterday. No hunger when I listened to three loops, but I felt the euphoria which stopped at the end of the loops. I had a 90 minutes nap in the afternoon, which I think made it difficult for me to fall asleep later at night. I finally went to bed at 1 am, but I was up by 6 am. I did not feel bad about this but I tried to go back to sleep again and finally woke up at 10:30 am.

I was not feeling hungry while making breakfast, but I noticed that I ate it way faster than I normally would. It's like my brain blocked food cravings while directing me to nourish my body as much as I could when I had the opportunity. 

From reading other journals, I can see healing takes a priority. I am happy for this and will stick to not looking for IOIs until after about two weeks. That said, I went out to get some toiletries. I did not notice anything different from my interactions with people. However, I did notice that I rated most of the girls as 5s or 6s. This is something I normally would not do. 

Day 4

I found it difficult to go to sleep last night even though I did not take an afternoon nap. I was still up at 1:30 am. I had to stroke the chicken to induce some melatonin. I fell asleep after that but was up at 5:45 am. I stayed awake for about 30 minutes trying to go back to sleep. Did not entertain the idea of "inducing more melatonin", but finally went back to sleep. Got up at 8:30 am., had a shower, made and ate breakfast like I normally would. 

Went out in the evening to get some fruits. I noticed a mild IDGAF attitude. Apart from that, everything else appeared normal. I can't complain - healing is taking priority at the moment.

Day 5 (Today)

I had a very weird dream which I can't remember the details. I do remember there was some sort of an apocalypse coming, and the world was getting into pitch darkness, putting everyone in a frenzy. I stepped in and told them to forget the darkness they are seeing and just relax. As they relaxed, the darkness gave way and the rays of the sun returned to earth.

Apart from the morning of Day 3, I have not noticed any difference in my food intake. I still got up very early this morning at about 5:30 am (I went to bed at about 2 am), but decided to go back to sleep. It's not frustrating because I consider myself a night owl, but I have the desire to become an early bird. I guess I'm still consciously trying to adjust to what is taking place subconsciously. 

Does anybody here use DFX Audio Enhancer? I had it installed on my laptop and set it to start automatically on Windows Startup. It's been like this for over three months. When I was adjusting the volume for today's listening, I had the urge to check the settings. Most of the enhancements were enabled, including the bass which was 8/10. I remembered seeing a post in which Shannon said bass reduces the effects of his subs. I am taking no chances here - I have disabled the software and will have to turn it on manually each time I want to listen to music. 

I just started listening to the third loop of the day.

PS: Big-ups, 4Kingdoms. I missed the update in Shannon's journal in which he said the price of DMSI 3 would go up. I probably would have missed it completely if you did not mention it on your thread. I hate to borrow money, but I had to in this case in order to grab a copy. 115 bucks is no small savings! 

Glad to hear you gave money to a busker, people like you keep me able to pay my rent!