09-23-2018, 07:59 AM
Neglect is very rough, both in my experience and from knowing others. They literally had noone or nothing to validate the worthlessness they felt about themselves. For me, it left a BIG painful awareness of something with no face and no experiences to validate myself. My mom and brother, both people I needed things from growing up, were not available in my early teens and onward. I thought me being alone as an adult was normal. E2 is slowly making me desire relationships more. And I'm still growing on it.
I am on E2 currently, my longest run so far, and I'm finding it will hone right on the most painful and disturbing feelings and memories when I'm ready for them. I ran E2 over a year ago for 2 months my first time, but things I'm facing now it never hit on before. When sufficient strength and willingness was in me, E2 came through. I like that it won't overload a person, and being that I'd had a lot of counseling, therapy, and 12 step experience, I looked for big stuff. But it didn't come until later.
Due to E2's built in safeties and limiters, and also how it shields the conscious mind from the unconscious (no reliving bad experiences!), I'd say go with this. Growth will sometimes feel slow, you may think it's doing "nothing", but hang on. It'll come.
I listen to E2 at home on the US track so I can do other things without being distracted, but I've been running the US version on my phone at work and social settings lately. And lately, lots of uncomfortable, uncommon feelings have come up. I am NOT overloaded though. And for therapeutic tools, that says a LOT. Too much, too fast seemed the only way for me in times past. E2 is a very effective, reliable, and non-explosive sub which I would say can heal you in many, many ways.
Thank you for having the courage to be honest here. That took nads.
I am on E2 currently, my longest run so far, and I'm finding it will hone right on the most painful and disturbing feelings and memories when I'm ready for them. I ran E2 over a year ago for 2 months my first time, but things I'm facing now it never hit on before. When sufficient strength and willingness was in me, E2 came through. I like that it won't overload a person, and being that I'd had a lot of counseling, therapy, and 12 step experience, I looked for big stuff. But it didn't come until later.
Due to E2's built in safeties and limiters, and also how it shields the conscious mind from the unconscious (no reliving bad experiences!), I'd say go with this. Growth will sometimes feel slow, you may think it's doing "nothing", but hang on. It'll come.
I listen to E2 at home on the US track so I can do other things without being distracted, but I've been running the US version on my phone at work and social settings lately. And lately, lots of uncomfortable, uncommon feelings have come up. I am NOT overloaded though. And for therapeutic tools, that says a LOT. Too much, too fast seemed the only way for me in times past. E2 is a very effective, reliable, and non-explosive sub which I would say can heal you in many, many ways.
Thank you for having the courage to be honest here. That took nads.
I want to be FREE!
