Blink's AM6 Journal - Complete Run

[Blink]

Doing E2 at the moment. Gonna put these posts here for the reference.

Hey guys.

I'm on day 38 of E2, at 12-15 hrs per day. Not really noticing any effects besides a slight depression and major lack of motivation.
I read reports from fellow E2 listeners having vivid dreams and feelings of joy or happiness, but I don't recall ANY dreams or any feelings besides depression on E2. My baseline emotional state before starting E2 was normally "happy", I might add.

Hardly any interest in women, or hanging out with friends since a week into E2. Last two weeks I'm a hermit, playing videogames and wathing NetFlix in my lonesome...

In the beginning I got fatigued from listening 16+ hours, so I scaled down to 8 and worked my way up to where I can do 12+ without feeling burned out, but I'm still tired.

Is this resistance? Is E2 working for me? Should I do more/less hours? Should I be doing something to "help" E2? (I just press play, no meditation or whatever tapping is)

Gaah, I'm all over the place with these doubts and insecurities!

In short; is there a light at the end of this E2 tunnel, or am I seeing the train a comin'?

Depression and lack of motivation is what the conscious awareness experiences while the deep, painful shit is being dealt with, processed, outgrown and released subconsciously. It means the program is doing it's job. Everyone is coming from a different place, so everyone has a different response. But if doing E2 leads to depression, your baseline "happy" was because you buried everything else and were not dealing & healing. Burying it means it was festering. And when you lance a festering boil, it's going to stink a bit somehow.

Try 2, 4,6 and 8 hours for a few days each and see if there's not a balance there that suits you better.

Hey Shannon, I remember you saying something recently about higher volume vs lower volume and how they relate to resistance, and the symptoms of the resistance, like depression and fatigue. If I'm remembering correctly, you said that if the user is feeling fatigued, volume should be turned down, and if you're feeling depressed volume should be turned up? I can't remembering exactly, so that might be wrong. Could you re-touch on that when you have the chance? I'm going to copy and paste it somewhere on my computer so I can save it, because it's great info. Currently the past several days, I'm feeling super fatigued and tired during the day. I'm running DMSI v2.2.

If the user is feeling fatigue, it means they're resisting the sub and/or processing some deep healing. You don't need to adjust the volume for that.

If you're feeling depressed, it means some part of you wants to escape the change, but knows it cannot, and begins to feel hopeless. Conscious awareness of this is depression. It also does not need a volume change.

It was anger and rage vs depression that we were talking about.. If you're having an anger and rage response, generally it's going to be because it's too loud and you're a control freak, and taking the volume as a command instead of a suggestion.

If you want something conscious you can do, try this.

Every night before bed (presuming you play it as you sleep), spend a few moments before you turn it on, saying, "Okay, I want and choose for this program to work for me, and I can let at least the healing parts work. So inner self, we can stop resisting now and at least let the healing scripting execute and work."

Then spend a few minutes imagining that you have successfully started getting the healing part of the script to work, and then go to sleep.