Aventus's E2 --->DMSI V3.0.1 journey

[DarthXedonias]

Day 43

My friend blew up at me because I overreacted. That entire shit storm happened and drove me to look towards myself through an intense bout of breaking down and crying. I realized my entire life almost has been dictated by the need for validation, escapism, as well as the lack of discipline. So after DMSI v3.2+ or final is released, then I'll run AM6. By that time, I hope the clearing modules can work on whatever it can.

That left me drained as all hell and left me depressed. 3 loops of v3.0.1A stabilized my mood for the duration of the loops.

I wouldn't worry about him, you haven't' really lost anything. You only lost a person who at one time might have added additional value to your life but now he would have been nothing but a weight holding you down as you try to move forward. In my honest opinion, I wouldn't have even talked to him and just ignored him from now on. That's what I did with my co-worker. I only talk to him if its work related and absolutely necessary (Despite him trying to be extra helpful now and trying to get on my good side again). I doubt I would have gotten a good response had I confronted him and with good reason. I will tell you this story not to hijack your thread, which isn't my intention, but maybe it will shed light on your situation and why your "friend" is acting the way he is.

I have a blonde Russian co-worker who I talk to at work (I trust her a lot and she knows to keep her mouth shut). She was sitting in the breakroom one time with co-worker C (person I'm not talking to) and this discussion ensued:

C: "I think Darth is mad with me".
Russian: "Oh really, Why?" (She was acting dumb, I had already told her about the whole situation and she was just fishing for information at this point).
C: *Goes over what he did*
Russian: "Why would you do that?"
C: "I was just looking out for him and trying to make sure he didn't go down a dead end".
Russian: "That wasn't your choice to make though".
C: * Excuse, Excuse, Excuse* "I was just looking out for him".
Russian: "You do know if we were in High school still and you did that people would consider that a betrayal".
C: *Excuse, Moral Justification, Excuse* (You get the idea)

Basically, had I confronted him about this I would have gotten the same garbage of him trying to justify what he did and not accepting any blame. There is where the crutch of the matter is. It has to do with responsibility and a victim mentality. People like this can't accept, good intentions or not, that they fucked you over. This is why he can't bring himself to bring up the issue first. Admitting that he was wrong means that he has to take responsibility and he can't use the victim card, so he won't do it. All he can ever do is try to be extra "helpful" and try things to get back back into my good graces because then he doesn't have to admit he fucked me over. I don't know your friend but if during your discussion he either (a) Kept on making up excuses or (b) tried to downplay what he did as though your the one over reacting then you have a very big hint that he will never admit he did wrong by you and he wants to play the victim in all this. Best thing to do is move on. People like that will only slow you down as you try to climb the ladder of Self-Development.