Day whatever (seriously haven't been keeping track. Set it and forget mentality)
Asian coworker came in for her shift and we actually had a conversation that didn't feel awkward. This is a big improvement because of how much stuff I have been hearing from her. Hearing about her promiscuity and questionable morals used to make me uncomfortable. Now it had become a funny joke with me.
My intention leaks into my daily interaction whether it is from my body language or other cues. I can honestly say I don't know what my intentions were in that situation but it is likely nonneedy. DMSI kicked in at some point though that's for sure. She usually plays with a dog and I usually would leave her alone and do my own thing and not get closer to her. After the conversation, i came in next to her and started playing with the dog that she's playing with. It sounds like nothing but I guess women catch these small changes in behavior.
I don't even know when it is DMSI influencing my actions or is actually my actions. I guess I'm starting to accept A's programming as my own.
An excerpt of the conversation.
Her: at one point, one of the first things I wanted to do was become a therapist.
Me: -reactionary chuckle/scoffing-
Her: Are you scoffing at me?! Well knowing me it would be ironic...
Me: wow that's dark
Her: Nah that's more so sub-text.
I left the workplace reinforcing my own message in my mind. "I am not the healer. Look elsewhere for that". The meaning escapes me but it felt profound.
Edit: forgot to mention my own body language. When she came in and I was talking to her, my body language expanded and i was adopting power poses like hands behind my head and puffing out my chest.
Asian coworker came in for her shift and we actually had a conversation that didn't feel awkward. This is a big improvement because of how much stuff I have been hearing from her. Hearing about her promiscuity and questionable morals used to make me uncomfortable. Now it had become a funny joke with me.
My intention leaks into my daily interaction whether it is from my body language or other cues. I can honestly say I don't know what my intentions were in that situation but it is likely nonneedy. DMSI kicked in at some point though that's for sure. She usually plays with a dog and I usually would leave her alone and do my own thing and not get closer to her. After the conversation, i came in next to her and started playing with the dog that she's playing with. It sounds like nothing but I guess women catch these small changes in behavior.
I don't even know when it is DMSI influencing my actions or is actually my actions. I guess I'm starting to accept A's programming as my own.
An excerpt of the conversation.
Her: at one point, one of the first things I wanted to do was become a therapist.
Me: -reactionary chuckle/scoffing-
Her: Are you scoffing at me?! Well knowing me it would be ironic...
Me: wow that's dark
Her: Nah that's more so sub-text.
I left the workplace reinforcing my own message in my mind. "I am not the healer. Look elsewhere for that". The meaning escapes me but it felt profound.
Edit: forgot to mention my own body language. When she came in and I was talking to her, my body language expanded and i was adopting power poses like hands behind my head and puffing out my chest.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
