Arctic Fox's EPRHA V2 Journal

[ArcticFox]

Not too long at all! Excellent entry and even better results man. I can't wait to read about the coming months.

Also, I think my favorite part of Batman vs Superman was wonder woman. How weird is that?

Thanks for always checking in Nox!! Wonder woman is sooo hot in that movie, not weird at all!!

[ArcticFox]

I've changed how I am working on fragrances significantly. It's frustrating to have to go so slow, but that's how it works. Paradise is currently at a point where I have had people ask to buy it, but I know I can make it truly stunning, as long as I take my time and allow my mind time to figure out a solution at it's own pace. Today, Take 3 #26 is going to be formulated, and I am hoping that the Jasmine and Hibiscus balance so that it is even more beautiful but remains unisex. Right now, the hibiscus is awesome. I sometimes feel like I am doing microsurgery working the way I do with perfumery now, but again... this is how it needs to be done. Extraordinary vigilance, care and precision produces extraordinary results.

I'm glad you're getting the understanding that you are seeing from EHPRA 2.0. That's part of the process. The subconscious is feeding the conscious an instruction subset from the instructions in the script which causes conscious participation and comprehension of those things that need to be understood by that portion of one's awareness for the whole to benefit and continue executing the script.

Its sounds like a very delicate process, Shannon. The way you describe it makes it sound very intriguing and therapeutic. I hope it comes together!

My best periods of reflection have been while travelling on trains and I have a bit of time to ponder. Although I realise and remember certain behaviours or experiences from my past life, a lot of them I don't understand or there are parts that i cant remember - but I'm trying to find something that doesn't exist or happened to me that explains some of my issues, like a childhood trauma.

[Shannon]

I guess you could say that it is somewhat theraputic for me. It's definitely one of the most enjoyable things I have ever encountered for me to do, even if some part of me is frustrated at how slow the process is.

I have what I jokingly refer to as "an 8 core processor upstairs" and I frequently have different cores working on different challenges. I always have at least 1 or 2 working on challenges related to subliminals. And it's really interesting to observe consciously what happens when I identify an issue that challenges me, and I assign it as a background process and generate X number of execution threads and assign them to Y number of processors for computation while I consciously work on something else. Even more interesting when I'm working away on something completely unrelated and the answer pops into my conscious mind. Aha! And then I implement it.

Kinda like my brain.

[ArcticFox]

I guess you could say that it is somewhat theraputic for me. It's definitely one of the most enjoyable things I have ever encountered for me to do, even if some part of me is frustrated at how slow the process is.

I have what I jokingly refer to as "an 8 core processor upstairs" and I frequently have different cores working on different challenges. I always have at least 1 or 2 working on challenges related to subliminals. And it's really interesting to observe consciously what happens when I identify an issue that challenges me, and I assign it as a background process and generate X number of execution threads and assign them to Y number of processors for computation while I consciously work on something else. Even more interesting when I'm working away on something completely unrelated and the answer pops into my conscious mind. Aha! And then I implement it.

Kinda like my brain.

Not sure how you cope with all the work and testing you do with subs, to still find time and work on other projects! Thanks dude!

I'm looking forward to the results with Paradise, and fingers crossed it will be available for the summer. That combined with the awesome work and progress EPRHA is achieving will tee me up for one of the best summers of my life!

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EPRHA 2.0 Stage 1 started 18/03/2016
Days completed total = 26
Days missed total = 1

Big breakthrough for me on the weekend, I finally made it to a "meetup" group. I'm a member of a cycling meetup and they often post beginner rides which are 30 miles long and you can take any bike. this suits me as its not 100km road route that requires a slick road bike. i can take my MTB on the beginners ride.

As usual i was thinking of what excuses I could come up with not to go after i signed up, experiencing lots of anxiety and trying to predict the future and imagine who i will meet and what will happen on the ride. Even tho I had a valid reason not to ride as my shoulder/neck was put out, it felt ok while on the bike as long as I didn't twist around to much.

Morning comes and I'm deciding not to go (as usual), then I think "stop thinking" and just get yourself there to the meetup spot on time and "what will be will be". Long story short I make it there, get along with everyone, chat with everyone and generally have a blast!

This has now spurred me on to get a road bike so i can take part in the longer rides, I'm chatting to a few members on the group about a ride this weekend where will do a short route then go for a pub lunch and beers! A new bike and more opportunities to meet people is going to be awesome!!

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Regarding progress with the sub, I've had a challenging week, my subconscious is stubborn as hell and really fighting the current progress, more anger than normal, lots of resistance but still the sub keeps churning away and doing its thing.

I've been much more easy gogin when it comes to calling and talking to friends and organising things, i rnomally hate doing that and get huge anxiety before calling friends - worried about what im gogin to say or how im have to be funny. Those thoughts and feelings are being broken down and replaced with a relaxed confidence and ease for communicating and contacting.

I still have to be careful as I almost lost it last night and burnt bridges with a friend, i tip toed out of that one. I think these incidents are more induced by external factors - alcohol, diet, etc rather than the sub creating resistance.

[Shannon]

Regarding progress with the sub, I've had a challenging week, my subconscious is stubborn as hell and really fighting the current progress, more anger than normal, lots of resistance but still the sub keeps churning away and doing its thing.

The technology in 5.5G is very weak compared to 6G for overcoming resistance, but I am pretty confident that it will succeed regardless. It's a fraction of how powerful and effective 6G is for overcoming resistance. Resistance is futile. You will succeed.

In 6G most times, the way it handles resistance is just plain hard to believe, even though I see it every time I test. It's truly like watching yourself shift from one reality to another as the person inevitably changes from whatever they started out with, to happily accepting and acting out the script. Some people go faster than others, but get the right ASRB settings and amount of exposure, and the rest is apparently inevitable. There's only one circumstance I have encountered that so far still allows for effective resistance, but I am close to overcoming even that I think. I just hope I can fully replicate that effect.

I still have to be careful as I almost lost it last night and burnt bridges with a friend, i tip toed out of that one. I think these incidents are more induced by external factors - alcohol, diet, etc rather than the sub creating resistance.

What? Are you trying to put responsibility for your actions, and choices and responses on an inanimate object? Sounds kind of silly to me.

[ArcticFox]

What? Are you trying to put responsibility for your actions, and choices and responses on an inanimate object? Sounds kind of silly to me.

No, what I meant is the opposite.

What I'm saying is my current issues are due to my current actions: drinking, procrastination, lazyness, not eating healthily, not exercising, etc. They are NOT caused by anything being released from the subliminal.

[ArcticFox]

EPRHA 2.0 started 18/03/2016 - 54 days
Month 1 completed 21/04/2016 - 34 days
Month 2 started 22/04/2016 - 19 days
Days completed total = 52
Days missed total = 2

Lots to update, not sure why I haven't been posting much. Will try to add some important stuff this week.

[Benjamin]

Cool, look forward to reading it. I'm not quite sure why you're calling it Stage 1 and Stage 2 though?

[ArcticFox]

Cool, look forward to reading it. I'm not quite sure why you're calling it Stage 1 and Stage 2 though?

Thanks Benjamin, yeah I've had some good developments!!

32 days, that's how I keep track - I just call it a stage. If I ever decided to bail then I would complete a full 32 day cycle before pulling out.

I agree calling them stages is confusing, especially to newbies as they think there are stages like AM. I'll call them something else, cycle perhaps. I'm open to suggestions

*EDIT* Months, I'll use months. Donut!

[Benjamin]

*EDIT* Months, I'll use months. Donut!

Hahaha months and donuts?

[ArcticFox]

Ok I should have tried to update more frequently as I forgot a lot of important stuff. To jog my memory I'm going to jot down some thoughts and then pad them out with details later. These are not all sub related, or things that I expect the sub to clear - I just want to update journal with events that may have some relevance and points that I want to reflect on in the future.

• Spiteful interaction with friend on my part that I managed to contain.
  
  
  
• Good developments in socialising and getting myself out there
  
  
  
• Guilt reduction on large purchase/present to my self
  
  
  
• Familiar feelings of stomach flutter induced thoughts of regret based on missed opportunities
  
  
  
• Claustrophobic experiences still occurring (hot flannel over face in barbers), but improved experiences when travelling by tube
  
  
  
• increased sub usage now with speakers at desk, don't know why I didn't do this before.
  
  
  
• Interest in one of my life long hobbies (RC Cars) at a low, this tends to go in cycles - but may be a turning point.
  
  
  
• Still avoiding getting a girlfriend, well I'm not actively seeking one
  
  
  
• Some sexual fantasies are way off 'normal' and need reigning in / but could escalate out of control - perhaps causing me to lose desire for normal healthy sexual relation with women.
  
  
  
• Still believe I am punching way below my weight in life and am failing in areas, a few peers and associates have things that I dreamed of and are less capable than me but are more focused/driven.
  
  
  
• Had some very positive social interactions with family and friends, I would say huge progress here.
  
  
  
• Potentially catastrophic situation at work regarding my contract could have ended badly, I handled it very well - but there was one moment on the phone when I went into a muscling tensing, heart pounding, nervous/frustrated state with someone on the phone - but still managed to come off chilled and with good outcome.
  

Overall everything really is going great, I am making steady, positive progress. The sub is awesome and although I sometimes face resistance it is very internal, and hasnt exposed me in situations.

When listening at work my brain gets a great fuzzy vibe, super chilled but confident and calm. The feeling seems to intensify for about 30 minutes after I stop listening which is nice. I also notice my brain shifting, like its being massaged in areas.

[Shannon]

In-The-Moment State Shifting is pretty awesome, isn't it?

[ArcticFox]

In-The-Moment State Shifting is pretty awesome, isn't it?

I don't fully understand it, but my awareness and ability to steer situations that my old conscious would be happy to sabotage, into calmer more mature outcomes is amazing.

Now for some journalling:

For a long time now I get bitter towards my mum for being negative - especially when speaking on the phone, her attitude frustrates me and makes me angry. This is my fault as I'm expecting her to take advice, I want her to be happy, to get out more, go for walks and do things that make her happy but I cant help her. I never have much to tell my parents other than my job is going fine, and I'm well and happy - so the conversation is often difficult. It would be different if I had kids and a mortgage i guess? They like to talk about that sort of stuff.

I always end up feeling bad after the conversation because I don't feel we really connect when speaking on the phone, that in turn then makes me feel guilty and that I'm unkind/not nice.

Dad has always supported my older brothers with business and property company, but never involved me. I want to blame him and my brothers for this but have accepted this as my responsibility for not being involved.

Regarding my growth:

Recently I've ramped up my self improvement. I have listened to the "Slight Edge" at least 3 times. I'm currently Reading "Thinks and Grow Rich" and listening to "The Miracle Morning" when I cant read.

Need to get back to healthy sexual relations with women, I think pron and kinked fantasies are stopping me from having a healthy sex life. I need to apply some discipline here (and not the kinky kind) :exclamation:

Health and social life:

The slight edge has spurred me onto more regular runs and yoga.

I finally managed to go to a social cycle meet up group. I can remember the anxiety and fear I faced when going on the first meet, its crazy now I think of it. My mind was thinking of every excuse in the book not to go - I think I wrote about this in a previous entry.

This has spurred me on to buy a new road/gravel bike. This means I can go on long rides, 40+ miles. I'm really loving the freedom and fun its giving me. I even organised my own meet up and had 4 people turn up for the ride which I lead the whole way!

The more I think about it the more it amazes me how much I am developing, day by day, bit by bit, EPRHA is bringing me back on track.

[ArcticFox]

EPRHA 2.0 started 18/03/2016
Month 2 completed 26/05/2016 - 34 days
Days completed total = 64
Days missed total = 3

Month 2 is complete. I'm going to take a break this weekend as I'm off to Europe for a stag do. I will be sleeping in dorms with at least 4 others and getting drunk each day so i wont be getting sub exposure. I'm going take Friday, Saturday and Sunday off then start Month 3 on Monday.

Month 3 was going to be my last month, making 7 months in total for E1/E2. But I think I need longer to heal. Its a good eye opener to say to myself "how would you feel if you finished today? (after 6 months)". The answer is "not where I want to be", maybe another month would do the trick but in all honesty I have a long way to go.

Today I hit a real low, like the ones I used to get occasionally on E1 - I'm feeling very depressed and my attitude has been terrible, moody and impatient DGAF. its taken me by surprise as its the first time I've felt like this in a long time, 2 months at least.

Although its hard to deal with it was always a sign that I was making good progress and was about to reach a new levels of progress, the night is darkest before the dawn . While on E1 I would always feel much better after the lows past so I'm hoping for a similar result here.

I think the depression is down to anxiety over the stag trip, I've had no intimacy with a women for 4 months, and I'm not getting on as well as I would like with my flat mate.

I'm also hitting the self help stuff a bit too hard, and not following through with the advice given. I think this is causing unnecessary pressure as I have loose ends and imaginary self inflicted tasks that "I think" I have to do hanging over me.

Some travel, friends and beer should help me out. Its been over 2 years since I went on a proper holiday/trip!!