02-23-2016, 05:51 PM
(02-23-2016, 05:16 PM)Why So Serious? Wrote: I don't think I should be an artist for a living anymore. I'll still draw and keep it as side gig but not full time. I actually visualized my self trying to do it full time and didn't like it. Felt burnt out just visualizing it. My feelings are hurt because I thought this was something I wanted to do. In a strange way I do feel relived at the same time. I think I was just forcing myself into liking it so I can have a purpose, have a direction in life. I know everyone is disappointed in me for not finding it.
I need to focus on doing something else. I'm tired of fighting myself with this.
I realized that I don't really think things through. I thought I did, but I don't. I really need to think this through and not force myself anymore.
Soul searching is tough but it's supposed to be. You're finding insights into who you are but that doesn't mean you have to make concrete decisions right away. Keep searching and stay strong. Maybe give the art for a living a break while you keep finding out what you want. You might refind it as your passion or maybe find a new one that could be related to it. Or maybe it'll be totally different.
