Day 65: First day of Stage 3. Both last night and the night before that, I went out with friends, different groups of friends each night. I should add that going out two nights in a row is quite uncommon for the old version of me. I had a great time both nights, specially the first one, as I was looking forward to it being a lot of fun (and I had that intention clearly set)... they would play music I really love and I would meet again with old friends. It wasn't a good time... 
it was an extremely great time!!! 
It happened that there were nice women there that I hadn't ever related with before. And I found myself talking to them with ease, very comfortably and relaxed, not caring about anything that happened... I was a lot more genuinely just me! I connected to the women, and they were open with me.
The only tensions I had, were early in the first night, about a particular woman that I felt intimidated with. I let it be, and put an intention to clean that in me, and the cleaning was going on even in the background of my awareness. It shocked me a bit when I saw, that I began talking to her later, lol. I was still a bit intimidated, but I could tell the feeling was dissolving, specially fast after I had talked to her for first time. I also found particularly interesting, that all intimidation about her was completely gone during the night
I connected to her as a human being.
It also happened that the guys treated me like a social guy (and I realized I was just that, lol, quite new for me!).
Day 76: 12 days into Stage 3. People have been giving me more more socially proof. I noticed it had to do with my presence, it was stronger. I more easily cause reactions in people now, from just being. Some noticed me and greeted me even before I did anything about them. And I mean people that either don't know me, or have just seen me several times. A particular cute girl would just stare at me, not saying anything to me, not even after me greeting her twice, lol
Yesterday, I woke up with an intense feeling of anger/frustration. I don't consider myself an angry person, I'm not used to handle that in my life... It seems I had built a "good person" façade on top of that, and those feelings were trapped inside. So yesterday I had some hard time dealing with it, and it came out several times, for me to clean... At times I felt like I needed to be alone, like I wanted to cry... So I had to stop distractions and face it, and I got another big part of that released again.
The curious thing about that is, when embodying those feelings of anger - even if I feel it is anger towards women - women seem more interested and attracted to me
Nice thing to realize today that, after the release, they don't lose that interest, hehehe 
Today, women in the street were giving me looks, in the eyes, in the crotch, haha :angel: And it felt to me very natural and normal, not intimidating or harsh at all (as it could happen a lot to me in my past).
By the way, I love to have had the time and focus to post this feedback. I really didn't wanted to leave you guys without some progress information, but I couldn't find the right time, state or content to share with you.
it was an extremely great time!!! It happened that there were nice women there that I hadn't ever related with before. And I found myself talking to them with ease, very comfortably and relaxed, not caring about anything that happened... I was a lot more genuinely just me! I connected to the women, and they were open with me.
The only tensions I had, were early in the first night, about a particular woman that I felt intimidated with. I let it be, and put an intention to clean that in me, and the cleaning was going on even in the background of my awareness. It shocked me a bit when I saw, that I began talking to her later, lol. I was still a bit intimidated, but I could tell the feeling was dissolving, specially fast after I had talked to her for first time. I also found particularly interesting, that all intimidation about her was completely gone during the night
I connected to her as a human being.It also happened that the guys treated me like a social guy (and I realized I was just that, lol, quite new for me!).
Day 76: 12 days into Stage 3. People have been giving me more more socially proof. I noticed it had to do with my presence, it was stronger. I more easily cause reactions in people now, from just being. Some noticed me and greeted me even before I did anything about them. And I mean people that either don't know me, or have just seen me several times. A particular cute girl would just stare at me, not saying anything to me, not even after me greeting her twice, lol
Yesterday, I woke up with an intense feeling of anger/frustration. I don't consider myself an angry person, I'm not used to handle that in my life... It seems I had built a "good person" façade on top of that, and those feelings were trapped inside. So yesterday I had some hard time dealing with it, and it came out several times, for me to clean... At times I felt like I needed to be alone, like I wanted to cry... So I had to stop distractions and face it, and I got another big part of that released again.
The curious thing about that is, when embodying those feelings of anger - even if I feel it is anger towards women - women seem more interested and attracted to me
Nice thing to realize today that, after the release, they don't lose that interest, hehehe Today, women in the street were giving me looks, in the eyes, in the crotch, haha :angel: And it felt to me very natural and normal, not intimidating or harsh at all (as it could happen a lot to me in my past).By the way, I love to have had the time and focus to post this feedback. I really didn't wanted to leave you guys without some progress information, but I couldn't find the right time, state or content to share with you.
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