02-01-2015, 06:06 PM
Hello Selfhelper and thank you for stopping by. Glad I could help, even though it's been awhile.
Yes there is progress Enternity_Child.
Hello There Dee, I'm not quite sure what you mean by you know what kind of alpha(ugh......there has got to be a better name for this
) I'll be. I'll do that exercise you suggested.
Stage 5 Day1
Well as you can tell starting stage 5 today and you know what I don't really care. I'm not caught up in keeping up with the program every single day like before to see if I'm getting progess. If something happens good, if not than it's still good. I had been debating for some time on whether or not to keep posting in this journal. But I know this may be able to help somebody else out so here goes.
I went through the depression period as usual. Who cares though you can read that in other peoples journals. SO far it's mostly internal changes. I don't feel paninicy or frantic like I used to to on the inside. I feel at peace now. It could still wok on that some more though.
I'm still learning how to take responsibility for myself and boy that hasn't been easy. I'm not talking about what most people call responsible I mean the real responsibility that is so rare to come by. It's a lot of work.
I also FINALLY found my life purpose. With the help of reading the 7 habits of highly effective people. It also helped with the responsibility.
I feel like I'm have become submissive. Not in bad way. I'm not a doormat. I definitely like it.
It feels so.......me. I just love helping out.
However, old programming has settled back in and I feel like I'm becoming the old me. I't won't last long though. I'm figuring out how to go back.
I realized that I think way to much about myself and that is why I get so depressed. Also not going out to try and keep the peace isn't helping out either but that is changing tomorrow.
For some odd reason I can't stand being around people who don't seem to have goals. It really drives me.
Also currently rewriting my resume so I can get another job.
I'm sorry if it isn't enough information for you guy's but as I mentioned above I just haven't been keeping up with the progress. That's all for now if I can think of anything else I'll post it here. That's all folks
P.S. May not post anymore because I seriously don't think I would be of help to anyone anymore
Yes there is progress Enternity_Child.
Hello There Dee, I'm not quite sure what you mean by you know what kind of alpha(ugh......there has got to be a better name for this
) I'll be. I'll do that exercise you suggested.Stage 5 Day1
Well as you can tell starting stage 5 today and you know what I don't really care. I'm not caught up in keeping up with the program every single day like before to see if I'm getting progess. If something happens good, if not than it's still good. I had been debating for some time on whether or not to keep posting in this journal. But I know this may be able to help somebody else out so here goes.
I went through the depression period as usual. Who cares though you can read that in other peoples journals. SO far it's mostly internal changes. I don't feel paninicy or frantic like I used to to on the inside. I feel at peace now. It could still wok on that some more though.
I'm still learning how to take responsibility for myself and boy that hasn't been easy. I'm not talking about what most people call responsible I mean the real responsibility that is so rare to come by. It's a lot of work.
I also FINALLY found my life purpose. With the help of reading the 7 habits of highly effective people. It also helped with the responsibility.
I feel like I'm have become submissive. Not in bad way. I'm not a doormat. I definitely like it.
It feels so.......me. I just love helping out.However, old programming has settled back in and I feel like I'm becoming the old me. I't won't last long though. I'm figuring out how to go back.
I realized that I think way to much about myself and that is why I get so depressed. Also not going out to try and keep the peace isn't helping out either but that is changing tomorrow.
For some odd reason I can't stand being around people who don't seem to have goals. It really drives me.
Also currently rewriting my resume so I can get another job.
I'm sorry if it isn't enough information for you guy's but as I mentioned above I just haven't been keeping up with the progress. That's all for now if I can think of anything else I'll post it here. That's all folks
P.S. May not post anymore because I seriously don't think I would be of help to anyone anymore
