11-16-2014, 06:56 PM
Stage 2
Day 31ish
Well tomorrow would have been the last day but I missed 4 days(voulue was too low). If I remember correctly that means I have to add on 8 days to this stage.
I am coming out of that funky mood I was in earlier slowly but surely. Going back to the good feelings that had at the beginning of this stage.
One of the things I have to keep reminding myself about is that it is okay to not be in good mood all the time. I really should get mad at myself for ........being mad, depressed, sad, etc. I have a good reason so there is no point trying to change it right now. It's serving as motivation to get me into a better place.
I don't like how I treat my nephews but I do see so improvement on the inside. I don't feel as stressed and confused when they come over. I feel calm when they are around sometimes. I know I don't like kids but I really need to improve my interactions with children.
I have looked at my options at becoming an artist and there are literately so many options. It is really difficult deciding which way to go. BUT I really need to just get started at this point. My biggest problem is that I can stay stuck in the planning stage forever. I can't let this happen again. I need to figure out what I'm going to do by December 2.I have an open house to go to at a college I dropped out of. I'll decide from there if I actually want to go back to that college or not.
I still don't know what direction I want to go do I want to do illustraion, animation, concept art for movies, games, and comics, or fine art (realism). For some odd reason I think I'm going to go the animation route. (Even though animation is definitely up there when it comes to difficulty.) In a way it just feels like my mind is made up. I think I know which path I'm going to take but it won't be easy. Then again nothing in life that is worth doing is easy.
I did back track on changing my diet. I was wondering about why I don't seem to care about my weight and health lately. When I went into that state of mind where I didn't have many thoughts I felt like the issuse is much deeper and more complex than I though.
I really need to get back in contact with friends and family. I'm still lazy and scared of doing. More Fear than laziness. I have to admit that the fear isn't as bad as used to be. I don't have that feeling like I'm about to have a heart attack thinking about. Some progress has been made in that area.
Sigh...... It sucks that I have to wait a whole week for stage 3. Oh well, I'm glad I don't have to restart the stage again
Day 31ish
Well tomorrow would have been the last day but I missed 4 days(voulue was too low). If I remember correctly that means I have to add on 8 days to this stage.
I am coming out of that funky mood I was in earlier slowly but surely. Going back to the good feelings that had at the beginning of this stage.One of the things I have to keep reminding myself about is that it is okay to not be in good mood all the time. I really should get mad at myself for ........being mad, depressed, sad, etc. I have a good reason so there is no point trying to change it right now. It's serving as motivation to get me into a better place.
I don't like how I treat my nephews but I do see so improvement on the inside. I don't feel as stressed and confused when they come over. I feel calm when they are around sometimes. I know I don't like kids but I really need to improve my interactions with children.
I have looked at my options at becoming an artist and there are literately so many options. It is really difficult deciding which way to go. BUT I really need to just get started at this point. My biggest problem is that I can stay stuck in the planning stage forever. I can't let this happen again. I need to figure out what I'm going to do by December 2.I have an open house to go to at a college I dropped out of. I'll decide from there if I actually want to go back to that college or not.
I still don't know what direction I want to go do I want to do illustraion, animation, concept art for movies, games, and comics, or fine art (realism). For some odd reason I think I'm going to go the animation route. (Even though animation is definitely up there when it comes to difficulty.) In a way it just feels like my mind is made up. I think I know which path I'm going to take but it won't be easy. Then again nothing in life that is worth doing is easy.
I did back track on changing my diet. I was wondering about why I don't seem to care about my weight and health lately. When I went into that state of mind where I didn't have many thoughts I felt like the issuse is much deeper and more complex than I though.
I really need to get back in contact with friends and family. I'm still lazy and scared of doing. More Fear than laziness. I have to admit that the fear isn't as bad as used to be. I don't have that feeling like I'm about to have a heart attack thinking about. Some progress has been made in that area.
Sigh...... It sucks that I have to wait a whole week for stage 3. Oh well, I'm glad I don't have to restart the stage again
