Thanks for the commentary, everyone.
I think the healing modules and whatnot geared toward getting me to execute the program are just really digging away.
The fights with my wife are considerably less compared to the rest of our relationship (4 years ago in an apartment complex, I'm shocked we didn't get noise complaints or the cops called from all the yelling). I've said it before, we're not completely compatible and we've always had a slightly explosive relationship. It's better now. Much.
The spark is still there. I'm actually getting laid WAY more now. There were times in the past that I got laid twice a month. Now it's easily once per week or more. I probably haven't been reporting on that as much as I should. "Oh, the married guy got laid again. Who cares!?" I figured no one would think that's a big deal, but seeing this from your perspective, 4K, I will try to do a better job to report everything!
I think (read: hope) that this withdrawal from society thing is just temporary. I've been doing things with my son indoors - he asks to watch Star Wars incessantly! I get teary seeing the wonder on his face while Darth Vader is on screen, or when he asks to see BB-8 or R2 again and again. It's awesome to see him into something that means so much to me.
Sarge, I ran DMSI (as 4K alluded) to get the "spark" back. But, I also was never the popular kid in school. I didn't start getting attention from women until I was a junior in high school - only I went to an all male prep school! I think another part is I'm getting older. It's like I'm trying to make up for not being who I wanted to be when I was younger, in a way. There's this inner child that just wants to be "important." I was actually kind of hoping some of these desires would get healed, and perhaps they still will, so I won't make those desires such a priority anymore.
Also, I've done things to my body in the past I'm not proud of, just for the sake of getting attention. Steroids, excessive stimulant use, DNP (that was really dumb). I want to look good, and do it in a healthy manner. Being a dad, I have to be around for my kid(s) for a long time to come! There's some serious junk in my head that needs clearing. I have plans to go back to E2 after the final DMSI product is released and I run that to satisfaction. It's crazy to see women look at you like a piece of man-meat and FEEL GUILTY about it! It's what I want, but when I get it, I feel guilty!? WTF is that? It's that kind of thing I want taken care of. I want to be a confident male, and I think being confident that you're a sexy piece of man-meat is part of that.
I think the healing modules and whatnot geared toward getting me to execute the program are just really digging away.
The fights with my wife are considerably less compared to the rest of our relationship (4 years ago in an apartment complex, I'm shocked we didn't get noise complaints or the cops called from all the yelling). I've said it before, we're not completely compatible and we've always had a slightly explosive relationship. It's better now. Much.
The spark is still there. I'm actually getting laid WAY more now. There were times in the past that I got laid twice a month. Now it's easily once per week or more. I probably haven't been reporting on that as much as I should. "Oh, the married guy got laid again. Who cares!?" I figured no one would think that's a big deal, but seeing this from your perspective, 4K, I will try to do a better job to report everything!
I think (read: hope) that this withdrawal from society thing is just temporary. I've been doing things with my son indoors - he asks to watch Star Wars incessantly! I get teary seeing the wonder on his face while Darth Vader is on screen, or when he asks to see BB-8 or R2 again and again. It's awesome to see him into something that means so much to me.
Sarge, I ran DMSI (as 4K alluded) to get the "spark" back. But, I also was never the popular kid in school. I didn't start getting attention from women until I was a junior in high school - only I went to an all male prep school! I think another part is I'm getting older. It's like I'm trying to make up for not being who I wanted to be when I was younger, in a way. There's this inner child that just wants to be "important." I was actually kind of hoping some of these desires would get healed, and perhaps they still will, so I won't make those desires such a priority anymore.
Also, I've done things to my body in the past I'm not proud of, just for the sake of getting attention. Steroids, excessive stimulant use, DNP (that was really dumb). I want to look good, and do it in a healthy manner. Being a dad, I have to be around for my kid(s) for a long time to come! There's some serious junk in my head that needs clearing. I have plans to go back to E2 after the final DMSI product is released and I run that to satisfaction. It's crazy to see women look at you like a piece of man-meat and FEEL GUILTY about it! It's what I want, but when I get it, I feel guilty!? WTF is that? It's that kind of thing I want taken care of. I want to be a confident male, and I think being confident that you're a sexy piece of man-meat is part of that.
