03-02-2016, 08:06 AM
Day 18.
I felt really agitated today. I don’t know if that was resistance to the sub. I was thinking about how R stopped contacting me after what seemed to be a fun date and how we’ve already planned things for the next meet up. It was frustrating. But I know it’s not my fault, so there’s a shift in my thinking. Last time I would question myself, what’s wrong with me, what did I do wrong. Now I know it’s not me. As long as I am true to myself, there is no regret. If they don’t like me – they are simply not for me. That is all.
After all the frustration came the high feeling again. It was this feeling like I had so much energy. I went on the treadmill and I could run more than usual today. Then I went home, I made sure I eat something yummy, watch some funny shows and enjoy my time drawing in my new sketchbook. When I was on the bus I was thinking about being myself and allowing myself to do whatever I like to do and I was filled up with so much love. It was a really strong feeling and it was amazing.
I know M will come back to find me because he is the one. He will come when he comes.
I felt really agitated today. I don’t know if that was resistance to the sub. I was thinking about how R stopped contacting me after what seemed to be a fun date and how we’ve already planned things for the next meet up. It was frustrating. But I know it’s not my fault, so there’s a shift in my thinking. Last time I would question myself, what’s wrong with me, what did I do wrong. Now I know it’s not me. As long as I am true to myself, there is no regret. If they don’t like me – they are simply not for me. That is all.
After all the frustration came the high feeling again. It was this feeling like I had so much energy. I went on the treadmill and I could run more than usual today. Then I went home, I made sure I eat something yummy, watch some funny shows and enjoy my time drawing in my new sketchbook. When I was on the bus I was thinking about being myself and allowing myself to do whatever I like to do and I was filled up with so much love. It was a really strong feeling and it was amazing.
I know M will come back to find me because he is the one. He will come when he comes.