day 77 ( 19 days remain )
Currently listening to the trickling stream and feeling very confident. yesterday i somewhat shifted in my being and it showed that i was dealing with resistance all along. I feeling grounded and centered.
since the shift happened my eye contact went solid, automatically. Direct making eye contact amkes many people turn away or go submissive. I have no second thoughts to it. It just happens. When noticing I dont make full on eye contact people seem to be more responsive, an d I notice this out of the corner of my eyes.
Socially I also become way more calm, smoother and less tension to it. Many thoughts of frame and "creating an moment"through dominance aswell as comfort makes it all natural. there are no strangers. Its just friendly and people acknowledge my status.
Im feeling more cenetered aswell. I can walk easily away from people and dismiss girls instead of sticking to them. Just walk away without any pressure whatsoever. I keep having thoughts of "im feeling realy confident". I want an change in carreer. Im reading some stuff from Christian Mcqueen and millionaire stuff and the multiple income sources, social connections, business operation definitely resonates with me. Very powerfull stuff. Health, wealth, woman basically. Its inspirational just to think about it.
One woman at work made long eye contact with me. Another asked me if she could go to the store qas how she was dressed. I still notice some tension at times. Also make me think and shifted me into "she has to dress this and that and I decide" Not out of some beta controlling desperation kind of thing, but more from an alpha stance. Thats why i love Dzemoo's journal. It resonates deeply. Yesterday was all about changes basically, being totally solid when around people and just being in the moment, no fears or anxieties, no need to "fit in", they rather gravitate to me. It was like some sort of vibe/aura kind of thing, an sort of shield, but not one out of fear.
Im also getting aware of the depth and level of nediness I carried all along. Not going to entertain that but it was lots.
I now feel very confident, its running all smooth. My laving of caring has lowered, and the IDGAF has been raised. Its more calm aswell.
I look at woman bodies differently and involve the eye contact. No shame ( there is tho ) but more from an seduction kind of place, instead of needy betaness. Its way more deep and complex. more mature.
Thought about bonding, direct and openly sexual and I know it. The "I know"transferance is an powerfull one" I feel different, like having tools and all of that, yet seem to shift to an more "part of my being"kind of thing. seduce. My eyelids seem more relaxed, my gaze, aswell as I notice lately. Its almost like some pressure on the eyes, like the sub changes facial expressions. makes sense. It also make me let go and let the sub sub do its thing.
The sub cuts through shitttests and many layers, more penetrating, unfazed because of confidence.
At times feeling more agressive, "negative", raw. ( negative for the lack of an better word, but whatever, wordgames )
I realize aswell shame. I cant stand it in others and am all for embracing and releasing this stuff, and get slightly annoyed when I see it in others, being shamed by women.
How girls disqualify themselves autmatically from high status males males sense as well and might have that happened. I have an sense that this has happened more then once. triggered me in abundance. Abundance as in "there are countless girls, and i am attractive due my purpose and centredness, irresitable"on some level, Its more of an "it just is"kind of thing.
Time management, business running, investment, it all resonates deeply and is my way to go. Im going to expand my contacts and delve deeper in this. Im working from an top model, as dominance and topdog comes natural to me. Not from some state of false arrogance, but more from my nature in this. Expanding my circle, contacts and knowledge.
How I see myself in ten years. It all has taken an 180 degrees.
I notice approval seeking in subtle ways. Give value, not being automatically responding like some subservient kind of person. laughing and what not seems to be an defense mechanism, like showing the person you listened just to not having to face backlash. This can be dealt with easily.
Spike reaction through touch. Expose yourself until you realize. I see myself with multiple women. The deeper eye contact is like an "hidden" network so to say. All seems somewhat equal, eye contact with girls conveying some status, it all goes deeper. im sometimes dont even realize i lock eyes anymore. It wanders and locks. people turn heads.
Sometimes I feel going faster, or atkleast some developments seem so, Its as if being placed in the asc seat.
Shifting more to an "doing it for myself" kind of frame in terms of running the sub. shifting from future, to now in terms of confidence. embrace it. In terms of of alphaness. opens an new field.
Currently starting reading "no more mr nice guy". Preservance of ones feelings through external validation seeking sets one up for failure. Its insanity to be treatened nice all the time.
Edit: From my experience with girls many seem to have daddy issues. Its classica push pull aswell in an way and for some reason this goes deep. My former realisations/beliefs are replaced by new ones, and eventually those are again crossed. The one girl at work back then seemed to be very immature and the such, yet not different from others ( my mind seems to put her directly into place ) , almost narcissistic princess and I am developing something, Im still not attached to it at all and couldnt care less and she is just one out of several million girls ( false mindset to go from her and then raise anxiety ) but this daddy complex realisation and being the alpha made something click. In the end I envision pure confidence, not some endgoal in an static frozen way, but just asc. Time to relax and let go and sink in.
I can connect and talk with anyone just fine.
Currently listening to the trickling stream and feeling very confident. yesterday i somewhat shifted in my being and it showed that i was dealing with resistance all along. I feeling grounded and centered.
since the shift happened my eye contact went solid, automatically. Direct making eye contact amkes many people turn away or go submissive. I have no second thoughts to it. It just happens. When noticing I dont make full on eye contact people seem to be more responsive, an d I notice this out of the corner of my eyes.
Socially I also become way more calm, smoother and less tension to it. Many thoughts of frame and "creating an moment"through dominance aswell as comfort makes it all natural. there are no strangers. Its just friendly and people acknowledge my status.
Im feeling more cenetered aswell. I can walk easily away from people and dismiss girls instead of sticking to them. Just walk away without any pressure whatsoever. I keep having thoughts of "im feeling realy confident". I want an change in carreer. Im reading some stuff from Christian Mcqueen and millionaire stuff and the multiple income sources, social connections, business operation definitely resonates with me. Very powerfull stuff. Health, wealth, woman basically. Its inspirational just to think about it.
One woman at work made long eye contact with me. Another asked me if she could go to the store qas how she was dressed. I still notice some tension at times. Also make me think and shifted me into "she has to dress this and that and I decide" Not out of some beta controlling desperation kind of thing, but more from an alpha stance. Thats why i love Dzemoo's journal. It resonates deeply. Yesterday was all about changes basically, being totally solid when around people and just being in the moment, no fears or anxieties, no need to "fit in", they rather gravitate to me. It was like some sort of vibe/aura kind of thing, an sort of shield, but not one out of fear.
Im also getting aware of the depth and level of nediness I carried all along. Not going to entertain that but it was lots.
I now feel very confident, its running all smooth. My laving of caring has lowered, and the IDGAF has been raised. Its more calm aswell.
I look at woman bodies differently and involve the eye contact. No shame ( there is tho ) but more from an seduction kind of place, instead of needy betaness. Its way more deep and complex. more mature.
Thought about bonding, direct and openly sexual and I know it. The "I know"transferance is an powerfull one" I feel different, like having tools and all of that, yet seem to shift to an more "part of my being"kind of thing. seduce. My eyelids seem more relaxed, my gaze, aswell as I notice lately. Its almost like some pressure on the eyes, like the sub changes facial expressions. makes sense. It also make me let go and let the sub sub do its thing.
The sub cuts through shitttests and many layers, more penetrating, unfazed because of confidence.
At times feeling more agressive, "negative", raw. ( negative for the lack of an better word, but whatever, wordgames )
I realize aswell shame. I cant stand it in others and am all for embracing and releasing this stuff, and get slightly annoyed when I see it in others, being shamed by women.
How girls disqualify themselves autmatically from high status males males sense as well and might have that happened. I have an sense that this has happened more then once. triggered me in abundance. Abundance as in "there are countless girls, and i am attractive due my purpose and centredness, irresitable"on some level, Its more of an "it just is"kind of thing.
Time management, business running, investment, it all resonates deeply and is my way to go. Im going to expand my contacts and delve deeper in this. Im working from an top model, as dominance and topdog comes natural to me. Not from some state of false arrogance, but more from my nature in this. Expanding my circle, contacts and knowledge.
How I see myself in ten years. It all has taken an 180 degrees.
I notice approval seeking in subtle ways. Give value, not being automatically responding like some subservient kind of person. laughing and what not seems to be an defense mechanism, like showing the person you listened just to not having to face backlash. This can be dealt with easily.
Spike reaction through touch. Expose yourself until you realize. I see myself with multiple women. The deeper eye contact is like an "hidden" network so to say. All seems somewhat equal, eye contact with girls conveying some status, it all goes deeper. im sometimes dont even realize i lock eyes anymore. It wanders and locks. people turn heads.
Sometimes I feel going faster, or atkleast some developments seem so, Its as if being placed in the asc seat.
Shifting more to an "doing it for myself" kind of frame in terms of running the sub. shifting from future, to now in terms of confidence. embrace it. In terms of of alphaness. opens an new field.
Currently starting reading "no more mr nice guy". Preservance of ones feelings through external validation seeking sets one up for failure. Its insanity to be treatened nice all the time.
Edit: From my experience with girls many seem to have daddy issues. Its classica push pull aswell in an way and for some reason this goes deep. My former realisations/beliefs are replaced by new ones, and eventually those are again crossed. The one girl at work back then seemed to be very immature and the such, yet not different from others ( my mind seems to put her directly into place ) , almost narcissistic princess and I am developing something, Im still not attached to it at all and couldnt care less and she is just one out of several million girls ( false mindset to go from her and then raise anxiety ) but this daddy complex realisation and being the alpha made something click. In the end I envision pure confidence, not some endgoal in an static frozen way, but just asc. Time to relax and let go and sink in.
I can connect and talk with anyone just fine.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus