ASC 5g journal

[Kol]

day 72 ( 24 days remain + ?? )

Im highly curious as to what AM 6.0 will do with me and am questioning if I should go on for full 96 days of asc ( ofcourse i should ) Im more alpha already.

Im on Stage 1 , Round 2 of AM 6.0, and I can say you have made great progress. AM 6 also generates all these feelings starting from Stage 3. The IDGAF attitude is simply phenomenal to experience.

Thank you.

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day 73 ( 23 days reamain + ?? )

Having lots of conficting thoughts, not feleing much towards confidence orm anything. had some breakthrough yesterday that confidence simply is, almost separted from my actions and what not. The subconscious programming breaking through and more and more dominating the conscious mind, absolutely attractive. Being overtly distancing from beta behaviour and speaking out of it turned tables when interacting with females and Im growing in my masuclinity awareness. Influx and increase in confidence and confident energy, more and more opposing mental masturbation and am action based. sheer confidence and being present.

Feelings of ruthlessness and primal. More dominant and freeër in conversation. getting disconnected awareness from certain patterns of neediness and how I interact, like being observer. Also have thoughts of ASC being more compact like an drill while the multistage might be very round and way more complex. Im repulsed by bèta's, orbitters and the such. I really dont give an utter shit to them and get hostile from those thoughts, separating msyelf from them. Its utterly futile and declare my rise. Im repulsed from beta neediness and desparatedness. Polarisation. taking it all in. When i will run AM 6.0 I will fully dedicate myself to it. Im feeling hostile and opposing, my mind filling with actions.

I penetrate through the eyes of female. Im dominant.

being abundant and non needi is basically invincibility.

It might be resistance but I have re-occuring thoughts of quitting and already jump the multistage badwagon. Also have re-occuring sensations that the sub is coming to an end, which accompanies feelings of dissapointment. Guess this comes from an deeper level taht is being dealt with as it seems so opposite. I right now as I type seem to somewhat get back to the ASC state and non caringness. Its being in my own world yet amidst them. Abundance is like being in Paradise. Abundance places me in another mode of existence and being, nothing can go wrong from that place as it simply doesnt matter, which makes it all more attractive and only grows, magnetic. If this is it or not, I dont care. Like free, disconnected yet amidst the social hierachies. Working instead of being subjected to societal programming and social programming, yet I allready aspire beyond.

Its what this sub does. Not giving a shit. Also my attention and time spending is going to take another route. So many energy and attention is wasted. Going to cut out coffee,, smoking and what not as I did before but now more serious. I am confident in my actions, habits and character aswell as personality. Not going to deny the issues that still play, which can be quite covered at times from my awareness causing me to become slightly confused and feeling an sort of meaningless in this. Like this sub is saturating and settling and now I can move on or something. Coult be conscious mind resisting.

To return back on the spot there is more to gain from this sub. I could be on the brink of breakthrough/awareness/realisation.

feeling it in my eyes and my whole conscious now. Time for some action and stop thinking so much about this.

Interesting sidethought: It feels like Im fighting some invincible something sometimes which makes think its resistance aswell as some sort of clinging, causing some deeper rabbithole to go yet totally okay. Im tired of fighting and avoiding. I give up. It makes me confused.