02-18-2016, 04:21 AM
day 72 ( 24 days remain + ?? )
had some strong dreams last night involving some guy I know strongly opposing me, went all out against me, basically one big clash and confrontation. The guy is the definition of beta, maybe even omega, aswell having Ivan Throne involed ( dark triad man on twitter ) Im feeling more alpha right now as i write, I begin to develop an strong dislike against bèta's, orbiters and white knight and the whole feminist sjw crap. I am not really agreeing with anyone or lose interest half way when I realize that I get caught up in some hype basically and am totally calm under it.
I understand the leader role more and more, how depending on state ruins state, how I am an high value and status male. Its an given at this point,
I feel disconnected from myself at times but nothing to worry about, might be an catch up and acceptance of new reality shift. Im not caring about where the changes are bringing me at all, before i might worry about how radical they are but now I dont give much thought to it, other then embracing the changes.
I feel people holding me back more and more because I am on an different level. I am absolutely confident and attractive. Im feeling slightly tired, moody, could be because I had no coffee and might quit coffee. Its getting all more smooth, natural. Right now, only when I write i seem to be aware of the changes, otherwise its like I dont pay attention which might be the naturalizer.
I hold myself high and tolerate no bullshit. people open me now. Im thinking how this sub might translate at times in the high school american popular guys who have an certain attractive vibe towards girls.
Im embracing the masculine. Im thinking how I am evolving further, and how my skilset is developing further, developing instructions with how no girl seem the same and am general fed up. Dealing with several situations and how the sub makes it all automatic, in terms of approach and dealing with situations. came aware of this when thinking about how explanation might turn off and kill vibe. ride it.
Everything is an ride, solid and fluid. automatically.
Im not feeling it today, bit sad, tired and drained. have thoughts passing about Blackdragon alpha 2.0 and the abundance. It comes natural to me, conveying status, high value, non neediness. Its being in Paradise basically but am not making myself illusions its all innocent and fantasy like. I have thoughts passing or rather images how woman are turned on by high status man/managers because of some high status role.
Total relaxation and confidence everywhere I go. relaxing on the spot. Having an edge at times, being an asshole, I can see how this sub might change one in that direction.Im very driven towards education, carreer but know I am confident aswell when Im less busy perhaps.
dealing with people is smooth and see myself having such an job. I know confidence is not your job, carreer and what not ( think fight club ). Forbes society and the such is very appealing.
Getting at times annoyed by everyone and everything basically. More undirected but can see how this sets me apart. I need to expand my social circle. |iI can hit up anyone basically but need something more concrete, the friend manifestation of AM 6.0 plays on my interests. Im straightening my life basically lately, planning up. My mind consists of possibilities and new oppurtunities, opening up new paths due the increase of confidence.
Sexual confidence is growing. doubt and thoughts are directly countered by asc. Im off the charts more and more. have some thoughts popping up about space to bed women. Slight doubt popping around, which really dont make sense but mostly when such is brought to my attention, it is dealt with and replaced with confidence. Nothing can stop me. Off the charts confidence experiences more and more, utter confidence and sureness radiating without any doubt at all but growing. Other peoples looks that would trigger some doubt inside before and now even blocked or/and dealt with with. Invade, infiltrate space, be sexual and touching, seduce.
Reduced my listening time to 14-18 hours. 21 was to much. dreams are returning, less head fog and resistance, more smoothness, less pressure to fill all hours.
Total disinterest in relationships at times, like the want is not there at all, not even popping up. Im planning on doing an speech for an huge group, just knowing i can do that, translating this confidence in many other areas of my life. Im getting arrogant at times aswell, being all disregarding, aswll as feeling an slight agression going on.
Bodylanguage keeps changing. annoyed by certain stuff in terms of social circle, and current events, involving lots of beta-ness, small vision, just not elevating and appealing. I give value, I dont need to take value at all anymore. Its gone, im naturally aspiring the throne, walking with some james bond shield of invincibility and direct authoritarian commanding aura, standing and stepping out.
\had some childhood sensations coming up aswell as traumatic events in my life involving my father. Im beginning to develop some slight respect towards him in an way, which is strange. The events that involved suicidal actions and what not due sheer pressure and ptsd trigger galore back then. Im now feeling being the leader of the family and will ascends to new hights. Thinking family and all that stuff aswell, legacy. When I slow down i want to be more individual and alone-ish in an way, tho socializing is an automatic action. reclaiming the leader role.
Going to join the gym, still reading into money, success, changing my food intake, preparing maybe for something.
Im highly curious as to what AM 6.0 will do with me and am questioning if I should go on for full 96 days of asc ( ofcourse i should ) Im more alpha already.
What I notice at times is as if the sub is not felt at all, its yet so subtle and natural, an given even. Im also gaining knowledge in terms of bodylanguage, picking up what I read faster, translating and learning about, seeing more betaness around me or Im increasing in value. I want to externalize this value and make it an extention from myself, manifesting. Success in every way. I might rise above many which explains why I see certain traits in other people. At times i dont want to do anything, just nothing, just being.
had some strong dreams last night involving some guy I know strongly opposing me, went all out against me, basically one big clash and confrontation. The guy is the definition of beta, maybe even omega, aswell having Ivan Throne involed ( dark triad man on twitter ) Im feeling more alpha right now as i write, I begin to develop an strong dislike against bèta's, orbiters and white knight and the whole feminist sjw crap. I am not really agreeing with anyone or lose interest half way when I realize that I get caught up in some hype basically and am totally calm under it.
I understand the leader role more and more, how depending on state ruins state, how I am an high value and status male. Its an given at this point,
I feel disconnected from myself at times but nothing to worry about, might be an catch up and acceptance of new reality shift. Im not caring about where the changes are bringing me at all, before i might worry about how radical they are but now I dont give much thought to it, other then embracing the changes.
I feel people holding me back more and more because I am on an different level. I am absolutely confident and attractive. Im feeling slightly tired, moody, could be because I had no coffee and might quit coffee. Its getting all more smooth, natural. Right now, only when I write i seem to be aware of the changes, otherwise its like I dont pay attention which might be the naturalizer.
I hold myself high and tolerate no bullshit. people open me now. Im thinking how this sub might translate at times in the high school american popular guys who have an certain attractive vibe towards girls.
Im embracing the masculine. Im thinking how I am evolving further, and how my skilset is developing further, developing instructions with how no girl seem the same and am general fed up. Dealing with several situations and how the sub makes it all automatic, in terms of approach and dealing with situations. came aware of this when thinking about how explanation might turn off and kill vibe. ride it.
Everything is an ride, solid and fluid. automatically.
Im not feeling it today, bit sad, tired and drained. have thoughts passing about Blackdragon alpha 2.0 and the abundance. It comes natural to me, conveying status, high value, non neediness. Its being in Paradise basically but am not making myself illusions its all innocent and fantasy like. I have thoughts passing or rather images how woman are turned on by high status man/managers because of some high status role.
Total relaxation and confidence everywhere I go. relaxing on the spot. Having an edge at times, being an asshole, I can see how this sub might change one in that direction.Im very driven towards education, carreer but know I am confident aswell when Im less busy perhaps.
dealing with people is smooth and see myself having such an job. I know confidence is not your job, carreer and what not ( think fight club ). Forbes society and the such is very appealing.
Getting at times annoyed by everyone and everything basically. More undirected but can see how this sets me apart. I need to expand my social circle. |iI can hit up anyone basically but need something more concrete, the friend manifestation of AM 6.0 plays on my interests. Im straightening my life basically lately, planning up. My mind consists of possibilities and new oppurtunities, opening up new paths due the increase of confidence.
Sexual confidence is growing. doubt and thoughts are directly countered by asc. Im off the charts more and more. have some thoughts popping up about space to bed women. Slight doubt popping around, which really dont make sense but mostly when such is brought to my attention, it is dealt with and replaced with confidence. Nothing can stop me. Off the charts confidence experiences more and more, utter confidence and sureness radiating without any doubt at all but growing. Other peoples looks that would trigger some doubt inside before and now even blocked or/and dealt with with. Invade, infiltrate space, be sexual and touching, seduce.
Reduced my listening time to 14-18 hours. 21 was to much. dreams are returning, less head fog and resistance, more smoothness, less pressure to fill all hours.
Total disinterest in relationships at times, like the want is not there at all, not even popping up. Im planning on doing an speech for an huge group, just knowing i can do that, translating this confidence in many other areas of my life. Im getting arrogant at times aswell, being all disregarding, aswll as feeling an slight agression going on.
Bodylanguage keeps changing. annoyed by certain stuff in terms of social circle, and current events, involving lots of beta-ness, small vision, just not elevating and appealing. I give value, I dont need to take value at all anymore. Its gone, im naturally aspiring the throne, walking with some james bond shield of invincibility and direct authoritarian commanding aura, standing and stepping out.
\had some childhood sensations coming up aswell as traumatic events in my life involving my father. Im beginning to develop some slight respect towards him in an way, which is strange. The events that involved suicidal actions and what not due sheer pressure and ptsd trigger galore back then. Im now feeling being the leader of the family and will ascends to new hights. Thinking family and all that stuff aswell, legacy. When I slow down i want to be more individual and alone-ish in an way, tho socializing is an automatic action. reclaiming the leader role.
Going to join the gym, still reading into money, success, changing my food intake, preparing maybe for something.
Im highly curious as to what AM 6.0 will do with me and am questioning if I should go on for full 96 days of asc ( ofcourse i should ) Im more alpha already.
What I notice at times is as if the sub is not felt at all, its yet so subtle and natural, an given even. Im also gaining knowledge in terms of bodylanguage, picking up what I read faster, translating and learning about, seeing more betaness around me or Im increasing in value. I want to externalize this value and make it an extention from myself, manifesting. Success in every way. I might rise above many which explains why I see certain traits in other people. At times i dont want to do anything, just nothing, just being.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus