Had strong escalation impulses with my therapist, she did buttdisplays, giggled, made at times eye contact and was highly receptive, came close on purpose like being magnetic pulled to me. I noticed my confidence increased by the minute when there, in the moment the sub took care of it, anxieties and tension where just that, tension. On the way back home I experienced an total freedom, nothing mattered in an non apathic way. Just bliss.
+ people tend to get more submissive when making eye contact, which gives an sense of power, part of me is still in doubt about this all at times. When making eye contact with couples, I noticed an woman lighting all up, making me think she is with some beta and I can give her easily more ( not out of neediness )
+ my natural state is slightly upperhand. Im sure I can equally conversate and communicate with authroity figures. Its no issue any more. Its settled and comes natural now. Its even somehow not making sense in my mind how people get all submissive around authority figures, yet i came from such an place. I simply dont care.
+entitlement to my speech and words, aswell an hierachy thinking and ascending to such status to go beyond it. It ties into leader and authority. makes me at times indentify with the very formal stiff kind of authority and non consideration of feelings at all. Almost like some very strict boss. Feels very serious and devoid of empathy. Will is law.
+deeper conveying of status
+When cathcing glimpes of myself walking in reflections, its very Obvious.
+ feeling of having some invivible james bond aura and shield, untouchable
+ Open up with touch, there is simply no doubt. yes I could escalate with my therapist, but didnt do it. Escalation puts ME into frame and in the zone of it all.
+Noticing the sense of hurry is gone, i walk slower and correct myself
+ people naturally open me and acknowledge my dominance and authority
+ I dont care if people check me out, Im getting playfull and couldnt care less which triggers deeper levels of feeling attractive.
+ getting more bold and outspoken
+ Interest in money and succes, going to change my diet and health habits.Im feeling absolute confident right now in every way.
+ moments that I am less serious and dick around ( yay memes )
change in taste in woman. before it was disinterest till the point of none at all, its shifting now that I can approach without neediness just for the sake of it or that i want. Anxiety mindset doesnt exist anymore, Its casual business like aswell and 100% succes in my mind, Its like networking my reality.
+ developing attraction traits, more open, cokyness, escalation, instead of mere logical mind. spike feelings. tune in.
+ My interest is more strong in terms of investment.
+I can easily lay girls at this point in my mind, the feelings ar really strong and solid. Its not an neediness but more an abundance, love? Unsure how to call it.
day 71 ( 25 days remain + ?? )
Looking into investment and the business world. Going to set up some routines and strategies. reading literature on money and succes only to increase and improve my knowledge around it. have to finish Sigma shock still and will read Unchained man: alpha male 2.0, no more mr nice guy and the books shannon suggested to read while on AM 6.0.
Speaking my mind is something still to be worked on as it is something persistent. ASC has still more to offer right now and i woke up in an confrontational mood. Some thoughts are being dealt with and had an slight moment of resistance towards listening to the sub. Notice sometimes something accelerates in terms of progression, like on an faster current.
Edit: more changes are going on, an sense in my chest. It feels like some space is made and some clearance is taking place as well as not caring. light stress going on and slight headache. Listening to the ultrasonic currently. When Im giving up all, the sub goes full force ( resistance/conviction? )
+ people tend to get more submissive when making eye contact, which gives an sense of power, part of me is still in doubt about this all at times. When making eye contact with couples, I noticed an woman lighting all up, making me think she is with some beta and I can give her easily more ( not out of neediness )
+ my natural state is slightly upperhand. Im sure I can equally conversate and communicate with authroity figures. Its no issue any more. Its settled and comes natural now. Its even somehow not making sense in my mind how people get all submissive around authority figures, yet i came from such an place. I simply dont care.
+entitlement to my speech and words, aswell an hierachy thinking and ascending to such status to go beyond it. It ties into leader and authority. makes me at times indentify with the very formal stiff kind of authority and non consideration of feelings at all. Almost like some very strict boss. Feels very serious and devoid of empathy. Will is law.
+deeper conveying of status
+When cathcing glimpes of myself walking in reflections, its very Obvious.
+ feeling of having some invivible james bond aura and shield, untouchable
+ Open up with touch, there is simply no doubt. yes I could escalate with my therapist, but didnt do it. Escalation puts ME into frame and in the zone of it all.
+Noticing the sense of hurry is gone, i walk slower and correct myself
+ people naturally open me and acknowledge my dominance and authority
+ I dont care if people check me out, Im getting playfull and couldnt care less which triggers deeper levels of feeling attractive.
+ getting more bold and outspoken
+ Interest in money and succes, going to change my diet and health habits.Im feeling absolute confident right now in every way.
+ moments that I am less serious and dick around ( yay memes )
change in taste in woman. before it was disinterest till the point of none at all, its shifting now that I can approach without neediness just for the sake of it or that i want. Anxiety mindset doesnt exist anymore, Its casual business like aswell and 100% succes in my mind, Its like networking my reality.
+ developing attraction traits, more open, cokyness, escalation, instead of mere logical mind. spike feelings. tune in.
+ My interest is more strong in terms of investment.
+I can easily lay girls at this point in my mind, the feelings ar really strong and solid. Its not an neediness but more an abundance, love? Unsure how to call it.
day 71 ( 25 days remain + ?? )
Looking into investment and the business world. Going to set up some routines and strategies. reading literature on money and succes only to increase and improve my knowledge around it. have to finish Sigma shock still and will read Unchained man: alpha male 2.0, no more mr nice guy and the books shannon suggested to read while on AM 6.0.
Speaking my mind is something still to be worked on as it is something persistent. ASC has still more to offer right now and i woke up in an confrontational mood. Some thoughts are being dealt with and had an slight moment of resistance towards listening to the sub. Notice sometimes something accelerates in terms of progression, like on an faster current.
Edit: more changes are going on, an sense in my chest. It feels like some space is made and some clearance is taking place as well as not caring. light stress going on and slight headache. Listening to the ultrasonic currently. When Im giving up all, the sub goes full force ( resistance/conviction? )
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus